I'm not your first love.
I'm not his first love. I'm not his first kiss, hug or date. I'm not his first.. anything, actually. Or second, or third, or fourth? But who's counting?
He has exchanged those 3 words before with many others with hopes of it lasting, as he does with me. He is sweet, generous, funny and caring - but these are qualities he did not magically obtain just by being with me. He had these qualities before & was just as sweet, just as genenous, just as funny & just as caring to the others, if not more so.. who knows? We have our inside jokes, daily routines & little forget-me-nots throughout the day.. but so did they. Comforting thoughts of dreams & plans built for the future together are amusing for now.. but how many times did I build my life & future around a then-love? How many times have I re-arranged my hopes & dreams to include the one I loved at the time? How many times has he?
You hear the stories of the obstacles he went through for others, the sweet gestures made for the girls he loved before & the fun times they shared together. You can't help but get jealous, you can't help but compare. I want to be worth the obstacles, too. I want to be worth the sweet gestures, too. I want you to reminisce & tell stories about the fun times you had with me, too. Better yet, I want be worth it all.. & even more so. A selfish thought but one without guilt. You're so special to me.. I just wanna be special to you, too.
Relationships are repetitive; they lack orginitality. Yes, a few things change here & there but it's the same concept. As time dwindles the fire of love lost & those left in the past, you could swear the love you feel now burns much stronger & much brighter than those left behind.. when in reality, you were just as sure with the others as you are now.
All this combined with insecurity, jealousy & selfishness can ware the heart. Be sure to comfort the one you love & show them just how special they are to you. Sometimes, they really need it.
I guess I'd be a hypocrite to try to shed some light & advice for those who feel this way because I feel this way quite often. It's natural but I wish I could advocate something to ease the pain. All I can really say is: Although you're not his first love, remember that you may be his BEST love.
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If everything's so repetitive, tell me this: How do you know?
How do you know that THIS person is "the one" for you? Everything feels so familiar; you've felt all this before. You were also so sure of everything before.. yet, tides changed. How do you know that this time, it's FOR SURE? How do you KNOW? You may think, believe, wish & hope.. but do yo really KNOW? No.
That's love for you. Love is a leap of faith. Nothing's ever promised tomorrow. The future is still uncertain & that's the chance you just have to take. Will you pour your heart, soul, emotions, trust & love into a person who may not be there tomorrow?
They said you should never make the same mistake twice. But with love, that's something you cannot avoid. Will you jump knowing the consequences? After all, you've made this leap before only to crash down. Not only that, you were left with bruises & scars to remind you of your fall. You've loved before. You've lost before. You know the risk of pain involved. Will you jump, despite all that?
He has exchanged those 3 words before with many others with hopes of it lasting, as he does with me. He is sweet, generous, funny and caring - but these are qualities he did not magically obtain just by being with me. He had these qualities before & was just as sweet, just as genenous, just as funny & just as caring to the others, if not more so.. who knows? We have our inside jokes, daily routines & little forget-me-nots throughout the day.. but so did they. Comforting thoughts of dreams & plans built for the future together are amusing for now.. but how many times did I build my life & future around a then-love? How many times have I re-arranged my hopes & dreams to include the one I loved at the time? How many times has he?
You hear the stories of the obstacles he went through for others, the sweet gestures made for the girls he loved before & the fun times they shared together. You can't help but get jealous, you can't help but compare. I want to be worth the obstacles, too. I want to be worth the sweet gestures, too. I want you to reminisce & tell stories about the fun times you had with me, too. Better yet, I want be worth it all.. & even more so. A selfish thought but one without guilt. You're so special to me.. I just wanna be special to you, too.
Relationships are repetitive; they lack orginitality. Yes, a few things change here & there but it's the same concept. As time dwindles the fire of love lost & those left in the past, you could swear the love you feel now burns much stronger & much brighter than those left behind.. when in reality, you were just as sure with the others as you are now.
All this combined with insecurity, jealousy & selfishness can ware the heart. Be sure to comfort the one you love & show them just how special they are to you. Sometimes, they really need it.
I guess I'd be a hypocrite to try to shed some light & advice for those who feel this way because I feel this way quite often. It's natural but I wish I could advocate something to ease the pain. All I can really say is: Although you're not his first love, remember that you may be his BEST love.
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If everything's so repetitive, tell me this: How do you know?
How do you know that THIS person is "the one" for you? Everything feels so familiar; you've felt all this before. You were also so sure of everything before.. yet, tides changed. How do you know that this time, it's FOR SURE? How do you KNOW? You may think, believe, wish & hope.. but do yo really KNOW? No.
That's love for you. Love is a leap of faith. Nothing's ever promised tomorrow. The future is still uncertain & that's the chance you just have to take. Will you pour your heart, soul, emotions, trust & love into a person who may not be there tomorrow?
They said you should never make the same mistake twice. But with love, that's something you cannot avoid. Will you jump knowing the consequences? After all, you've made this leap before only to crash down. Not only that, you were left with bruises & scars to remind you of your fall. You've loved before. You've lost before. You know the risk of pain involved. Will you jump, despite all that?