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I'm sitting alone in my Brooklyn apartment. I have a fridge full of food (sort of anyway) and a cat to keep the mice away. I've recieved a stipend for the work I'm doing in my internship. Yet, I'm an actor. I'm insecure. I'm neurotic. I'm shy. I'm young. I've got www.alluc.org which has scrubs. Really, what I need is someone to tell me I'm going to be ok. I'm going to be just fine.
I really do like it here. It's great. I just wish I had friends here, like really close friends of several years that have like been through shit with me and I have been through shit with them and stuff. It's scary having to meet new people. I know some people here and that is great, but still, I don't know, it isn't the same. I know I'll be ok. I know I'll be just fine (when I leave college). It's just that sometimes I wish it was like a tv sitcome and I had a group of friends that will be at the dinner or coffee shop or whereever the usual hang out is. A group that will re-asure me that I'm a good actor and I'll have a career.
Altough I have me, which is pretty cofident. Although I can't trust myself because I'm inherantly biased. If I am biased for me it has to be a good sign though. And I know my friends support me and most think I'll make it.
I'm an actor. It's fun.
I really do like it here. It's great. I just wish I had friends here, like really close friends of several years that have like been through shit with me and I have been through shit with them and stuff. It's scary having to meet new people. I know some people here and that is great, but still, I don't know, it isn't the same. I know I'll be ok. I know I'll be just fine (when I leave college). It's just that sometimes I wish it was like a tv sitcome and I had a group of friends that will be at the dinner or coffee shop or whereever the usual hang out is. A group that will re-asure me that I'm a good actor and I'll have a career.
Altough I have me, which is pretty cofident. Although I can't trust myself because I'm inherantly biased. If I am biased for me it has to be a good sign though. And I know my friends support me and most think I'll make it.
I'm an actor. It's fun.