Valentines'
xx
Since Valentines' falls on a Thursday, and I've got to be in school from 9am to 10pm, it was impossible for us to meet on the day itself. And so, two of us made a trip to JB yesterday since I had two free days and we had always wanted to head over to do what we usually do; pig out. 2 days spent with C was so good, in fact looking back at the period whereby we started dating, it had never exactly been bad despite a few mishaps here and there. Falling asleep while talking about everything and anything and eventually blabbering nonsense was the most enjoyable I have no idea why. Its like you're so comfortable, its possible to talk shit and don't make sense, and yet, you're so comfortable with each other its perfectly fine. When I look at the pictures of us together, its obvious that we're really happy, the both of us. I don't want to compare, but looking back at the previous boy, the pictures we took were so awkward, I feel like photoshopping his weird expressions or even the entire face. Pictures really do tell a lot, don't they?
Its so comforting to have someone around who is willing to go the extra mile just to make sure that I'm alright in every single minute of the day. Its been years since I've had someone around like that. I mean, I have friends who would take care of me and be there, but having a special someone just feels different. Before I met C and how I was struggling to be better, I believed that I was really undeserving of such love and questioned if it even existed. It turns out that, I've been clinging on to someone so undeserving and I just have not met anyone who really yearns to make things right. Someone whom I can trust to be there, someone who would not push me away and someone who sincerely cares and wants me to be happy. I ought to be thankful that I had dated a dick that made me treasure, realise and appreciate how the smallest actions are actually so significant and impactful in their own ways.
Its almost 5 I have no idea what I'm ranting on and on about anymore. Happy Valentines' Day everyone and of course, C! x