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So, major whiney ventage here. Don’t read it, honestly, it’s just for my benefit of getting it out. Last night I went over grant’s house with Caitlin. Jayk &grant were playing video games…they were standing up, and were only like a foot away from the screen, so of course, I had to make fun of them, because they’re losers.
Justin shows up. So we watched them play video games for awhile &then I decided that I needed to school grant in basketball (again) so we went to play. Big mistake. Justin &grant were one team & me, cait & jayk were another. Granted, Justin &grant both play basketball, they were kicking our butts because we all suck. Somehow though, my team ended up winning. ( I think it’s because the game is called “I always win’) then some of michelle’s (grant’s gf) friends Kathy &nicole showed up. Michelle was at work and we were going to go visit her.
Yes, and then I learned that Justin sort of has a ‘thing’ with one of these girls. [ gag ] first of all, me, jayk &Justin get into one car &Caitlin goes “that blonde chick looks like an UGL-….oops, I’m sorry”. Hahahaha. She thought she had offended Justin because he likes her friend. He just laughed and agreed that she was UGL-
Michelle gave us free icecream but I wanted to be throw up because Justin &Nicole were all over eachother and she kept giggling and I wanted to punch her. Justin is so not like that and I didn’t think he liked that type of girl. (maybe because I thought I was his type of girl and I’m not like that at all?) so anyways. Justin was being a jerk to me all night long &made some ridiculous comment about how I never call him but I call grant all the time. So I yelled at him and just told him that he’s never once called me (honestly I don’t think he really ever has) and grant does. He shut up after that.
I know that I really don’t like him anymore, because I know that things would never work out between us, we always try but he’s too difficult to have a relationship due to his extreme shyness and my extreme …not shyness. I don’t like him..but yet at the same time I was so ‘salty’ about that girl that was there that he was flirting with &crap. He says he’s my friend…right. I take him to prom &then we don’t talk for two months. Yeah. That’s cool.
He was online today so I said hi, he had to go eat lunch. Riiiight. He comes back, we’re talking about how he doesn’t know what he’s doing with this chick. He’s not the type of guy who just likes to have ‘fun’ wink wink nudge nudge. But he told me he doesn’t want a gf before going away to school. (he’s going to rhode island) so anyways, I was telling him about the NEW Justin I met from orientation &I said that hopefully things work out better with this Justin. He said ouch &I said it’s true…things never went right for us, not even once. He got mad when I mentioned prom &how he’s never spoken to me since then. Then he left. Everytime I try to bring that up he suddenly leaves or changes the subject. Obviously, there’s something I’m missing here. I just wish he would get over it and say something about it because I’m sick of wondering what is going on inside his head.
I don’t really know why I wrote all this. I just needed to get it out of my head already.I wish that I could write better and that I could more significantly get this out of my system. I like talking so much better, I can’t always find the right words when I’m writing. Alskjdflksajdfljslkfjslfjlsjflsdjflnvlk. See, that isn’t even a word. I can’t deal sometimes. There’s a lot of drama going on in my life right now. Okay, I lied. There isn’t any real drama going on in my life right now. Today I’m just in one of those moods where you don’t feel your brightest and I honestly couldn’t tell you why. Maybe it’s because of all this Justin crap and I feel insignificant or like I’m not good enough for somebody. Then I remember the NEW Justin &think, well obviously I matter to someone because this kid is going to extra lengths to try to be my friend, boyfriend, whatever…
Oh, I’m not sure if I wrote about this before or not…but…
On Saturday when I got home from work I felt like it was my birthday. While I was working, my parents went out and bought me a cell phone. Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! Finally! Katie has a cell phone! They also bought me a chair and a pillow thing for my dorm room, two shirts, and two pairs of pajama pants. I’m unbelievably surprised about how nice my parents can be sometimes and then they give me an effing eleven o’ clock curfew. How ridiculous!
Justin shows up. So we watched them play video games for awhile &then I decided that I needed to school grant in basketball (again) so we went to play. Big mistake. Justin &grant were one team & me, cait & jayk were another. Granted, Justin &grant both play basketball, they were kicking our butts because we all suck. Somehow though, my team ended up winning. ( I think it’s because the game is called “I always win’) then some of michelle’s (grant’s gf) friends Kathy &nicole showed up. Michelle was at work and we were going to go visit her.
Yes, and then I learned that Justin sort of has a ‘thing’ with one of these girls. [ gag ] first of all, me, jayk &Justin get into one car &Caitlin goes “that blonde chick looks like an UGL-….oops, I’m sorry”. Hahahaha. She thought she had offended Justin because he likes her friend. He just laughed and agreed that she was UGL-
Michelle gave us free icecream but I wanted to be throw up because Justin &Nicole were all over eachother and she kept giggling and I wanted to punch her. Justin is so not like that and I didn’t think he liked that type of girl. (maybe because I thought I was his type of girl and I’m not like that at all?) so anyways. Justin was being a jerk to me all night long &made some ridiculous comment about how I never call him but I call grant all the time. So I yelled at him and just told him that he’s never once called me (honestly I don’t think he really ever has) and grant does. He shut up after that.
I know that I really don’t like him anymore, because I know that things would never work out between us, we always try but he’s too difficult to have a relationship due to his extreme shyness and my extreme …not shyness. I don’t like him..but yet at the same time I was so ‘salty’ about that girl that was there that he was flirting with &crap. He says he’s my friend…right. I take him to prom &then we don’t talk for two months. Yeah. That’s cool.
He was online today so I said hi, he had to go eat lunch. Riiiight. He comes back, we’re talking about how he doesn’t know what he’s doing with this chick. He’s not the type of guy who just likes to have ‘fun’ wink wink nudge nudge. But he told me he doesn’t want a gf before going away to school. (he’s going to rhode island) so anyways, I was telling him about the NEW Justin I met from orientation &I said that hopefully things work out better with this Justin. He said ouch &I said it’s true…things never went right for us, not even once. He got mad when I mentioned prom &how he’s never spoken to me since then. Then he left. Everytime I try to bring that up he suddenly leaves or changes the subject. Obviously, there’s something I’m missing here. I just wish he would get over it and say something about it because I’m sick of wondering what is going on inside his head.
I don’t really know why I wrote all this. I just needed to get it out of my head already.I wish that I could write better and that I could more significantly get this out of my system. I like talking so much better, I can’t always find the right words when I’m writing. Alskjdflksajdfljslkfjslfjlsjflsdjflnvlk. See, that isn’t even a word. I can’t deal sometimes. There’s a lot of drama going on in my life right now. Okay, I lied. There isn’t any real drama going on in my life right now. Today I’m just in one of those moods where you don’t feel your brightest and I honestly couldn’t tell you why. Maybe it’s because of all this Justin crap and I feel insignificant or like I’m not good enough for somebody. Then I remember the NEW Justin &think, well obviously I matter to someone because this kid is going to extra lengths to try to be my friend, boyfriend, whatever…
Oh, I’m not sure if I wrote about this before or not…but…
On Saturday when I got home from work I felt like it was my birthday. While I was working, my parents went out and bought me a cell phone. Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! Finally! Katie has a cell phone! They also bought me a chair and a pillow thing for my dorm room, two shirts, and two pairs of pajama pants. I’m unbelievably surprised about how nice my parents can be sometimes and then they give me an effing eleven o’ clock curfew. How ridiculous!