another day...
Well, it's been over a year. I can't really explain how much my life has changed. I don't have any friends and I have a boyfriend who is extremely nice to me even though we get in arguments too much for what i want. I am planning on moving to Ohio by the end of the summer if nothing changes. I'm just honestly really sick of being fucked over. I just feel like I am an amazing friend yet I have none and I don't get it. I don't know maybe that's just the way life is sometimes.
This past Christmas break I was extremely depressed. Things were basically spiraling out of control and I was drunk every day. I was late for work, sick all the time, and didn't care about anything. I lost both my jobs and pushed myself to the edge. I couldn't do it anymore so I gave up drinking. I'm still struggling with not being in the program anymore and not finishing x-ray cos that was what I really wanted to do at the time but I WILL figure out what I want to do. I WILL be successful and I WILL make money to support a family someday. It's just gonna take longer than everyone else. And I don't really care about that. I'm not Amy Fletcher or Brittany Chadick. I didn't graduate on time or get married early. I'm Sarah Clever, and I'm going to take my damn time so that I will have a good job, I'll be happy, and I won't get divorced
Annalee came into town and didn't tell me. I found out because I read her friends myspace and she told her and not me. She was supposed to be my best friend, the best one I ever had. Every time I even came CLOSE to Nashville I always told her. I always wanted to see her no matter what the situation. And she can't even tell me when she comes in town for a weekend with her baby? It just broke my heart. I couldn't believe that she would actually not tell me. I still got to see her and we had a lot of fun, but once again it was my efforts. If it wasn't for me calling her, she never would have seen me or cared.
Belle is seriously the best dog in the world and I really don't know what I would do without her. She makes everything better and she is a damn trooper. I think it is a miracle she is alive after what happened in November. She is super dog, literally.
Anyway I got an iphone and it is seriously the shit. It is beyond a phone. It is life changing as Emily said and I absolutely love it. I am praying and hoping that I never break it and fuck it up.
My life is just bland lately. Not much excitement and a boring job. Kind of in a state where I don't really know what to do. Everyone I try to be friends with either ditches me or ignores me and I'm sick of trying. But maybe, hopefully, there is a reason.
Oh well, I'll figure it out someday.
This past Christmas break I was extremely depressed. Things were basically spiraling out of control and I was drunk every day. I was late for work, sick all the time, and didn't care about anything. I lost both my jobs and pushed myself to the edge. I couldn't do it anymore so I gave up drinking. I'm still struggling with not being in the program anymore and not finishing x-ray cos that was what I really wanted to do at the time but I WILL figure out what I want to do. I WILL be successful and I WILL make money to support a family someday. It's just gonna take longer than everyone else. And I don't really care about that. I'm not Amy Fletcher or Brittany Chadick. I didn't graduate on time or get married early. I'm Sarah Clever, and I'm going to take my damn time so that I will have a good job, I'll be happy, and I won't get divorced
Annalee came into town and didn't tell me. I found out because I read her friends myspace and she told her and not me. She was supposed to be my best friend, the best one I ever had. Every time I even came CLOSE to Nashville I always told her. I always wanted to see her no matter what the situation. And she can't even tell me when she comes in town for a weekend with her baby? It just broke my heart. I couldn't believe that she would actually not tell me. I still got to see her and we had a lot of fun, but once again it was my efforts. If it wasn't for me calling her, she never would have seen me or cared.
Belle is seriously the best dog in the world and I really don't know what I would do without her. She makes everything better and she is a damn trooper. I think it is a miracle she is alive after what happened in November. She is super dog, literally.
Anyway I got an iphone and it is seriously the shit. It is beyond a phone. It is life changing as Emily said and I absolutely love it. I am praying and hoping that I never break it and fuck it up.
My life is just bland lately. Not much excitement and a boring job. Kind of in a state where I don't really know what to do. Everyone I try to be friends with either ditches me or ignores me and I'm sick of trying. But maybe, hopefully, there is a reason.
Oh well, I'll figure it out someday.