wrestled the angels for more than a name..

[rewind_re_start]

i have to write. emotions just making me numb

waking up to an appreciating phone call.
just makes me feel a bit better that things have settled down
but forgiveness takes time
wounds need to heal

but now memories flash back to me
and it makes me feel so sick

the rush of emotion that came over me that tragic night
over 2 years ago just come back to me now
and the feeling of numbness just cling to me
why does god take innocent people that are so young?
especially when they are in their prime.
i hate it

i learned today that a friend was killed
by a drunk driver
i wasnt super close to him or a best friend
but a friend in general
he was so nice
funny
someone who was fun to hang out with
now gone
raz : i am so glad that i got the opportunity to
get to meet you back in july. you will always have
a place in my heart. you will always be missed and
always remembered

and here i go again
i miss trisha so much
i wonder where she would have gone to college
what she would have studied
if we would still be friends
would she have been in the group that i was in
or would we have just stayed me her and lo
if it was her to go
would it have been another friend?
not a day goes by now
that i dont forget her ((worded right... not sure))
but i love her
miss her
every time i see a butterfly
i think of her
my buddee
a best friend
high school buddy
sam & ella

numb

just

numb.