Breaking up is hard to do

[revwitch]

Well, after much soul searching I had to let Mike (Doc) know that this just wasn't the right relationship for me and that I wasn't comfortable with him moving here. I let him know that he should keep his job in the Twin Cities and not take the job that was offered to him Monday this week in Des Moines. Took me a while to really get solid the stuff that was going on in my head, and no one (family or friends) pushed me into this, but yesterday I realized that I just couldn't move forward with this anymore. I need to do some more balancing of me, some other dating maybe, and definitely a lot of inner and outer house cleaning and fixing and shoring up. This weekend he and I were supposed to pack his things and have him down here Sunday night to start work on Monday, but the more I thought about it, the more I dreaded it. Finally, at 1 AM this morning I knew that I had to write and not keep this up. I feel like a schmuck for breaking things off at the 11th hour, but do think it was the right thing to do.

I think I need to go out to the Ledges and burn things now. Blah.