cannot be for me

[revruby]

i am who i am, no more, no less.

i can feel the horse inside me,
restless at the gate.
chomping at the self imposed bit
heart pounding in anticipation.

i can feel the purr of the cat that resides in my breast
the need for night
and creature comforts
one person, maybe two
my only companions

i can feel the whimper of the dog that breathes within me
looking for acceptance
crying for loneliness
jumping for joy
when friends return

i can feel the caged bird in my hands
aching for a freedom
my pencil cannot give

this is me, and more.
i am me, and more.
but i am not enough for you
and never could be for him.
but i still cannot be for me.