what have I done
I fucked up the light of my life am I doomed to have this constent feeling of being alone I know am scared of one thing and my bigest fear for god knows is being alone it is the main reason why I acted like I did I died once and revived when i was 2 from flea dip I drank smart choice huh maybe somthing tragic in future time my eyes turn color after that day from what I was told I dont know yet maybe thats why I have stomach problems Im not scared to die or die alone everyone has to deal with that just scared to enjoy life alone does it even make life living if you dont have it to share with what is my purpose in life why did I get a second chance and not someone eles god has a plan for me I just know what it is I hope I dont let the big guy down I just got to have faith Something deep in my mind says if you love her dont quit love will pervail but I cant do nothing to gain her faith the way things are set I cant talk to her cant see her and even cant think of her because I do somthing that seems like a good idea ends up makes me getting laugh at for loving you its a hard thing to swollow nothing is worse that a couple saying forget her and it will be ok then mins later their sucking face in front of me they cant relate to me only she can