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im so sorry i havent posted in so long....its amazingg how much my life has changed in just the last 2 weeks, the last time i posted....i was so fucking careless what the fuck was i thinking?
The first thing is ive lost someone who was really close to me at one time, i knew we were growing apart, but i didnt know that this would happen..
they have broken my trust and i wish that they could just take everything back, that i could just rewind time to 3 weeks ago and start over, i could make this all right. but i cant, i cant do that, i had to accept responsibility for the shit that i have done...
i cant really deal with it, i dont know how to deal with change, its not me. i think i am getting depressed again and im like, NO! i know its coming but its like a freight train i cant stop it. last night i didnt sleep at all i sat in my bed and listened to pearl jam and stared at the walls. i have no clue how to deal with pain, i almodst wnat to make my pain concrete but i kno that that is dumb...been there done that and its not cool. i know its coming and i dont know what i will be like once im gone.
welll haha alot has happened over the breeaakkk...lots of good stuff besides that bad stuff i just finished talking about...plenty of funn shiittt tooo! haha
when i got back from tenessee hmm sunday went to hang out at lukes all day, twas fun
monday went to chris's and hung out
tuesday went to the mally-pooooo with luuukas
wednesday messed around, went to the show at the bell house, it was reelly funnnn
uhh friday i did something i cant remeber lol
saturday i went to logans house with evan and we jammed
went to starbucks with evan then went to the emo show hells yeahhh!!!! lol that was my uniteresting
break! lol
now im getting reddy for my frist gym class of the year yaaaaaaaaay!
i love u alll
im in a better mood now
The first thing is ive lost someone who was really close to me at one time, i knew we were growing apart, but i didnt know that this would happen..
they have broken my trust and i wish that they could just take everything back, that i could just rewind time to 3 weeks ago and start over, i could make this all right. but i cant, i cant do that, i had to accept responsibility for the shit that i have done...
i cant really deal with it, i dont know how to deal with change, its not me. i think i am getting depressed again and im like, NO! i know its coming but its like a freight train i cant stop it. last night i didnt sleep at all i sat in my bed and listened to pearl jam and stared at the walls. i have no clue how to deal with pain, i almodst wnat to make my pain concrete but i kno that that is dumb...been there done that and its not cool. i know its coming and i dont know what i will be like once im gone.
welll haha alot has happened over the breeaakkk...lots of good stuff besides that bad stuff i just finished talking about...plenty of funn shiittt tooo! haha
when i got back from tenessee hmm sunday went to hang out at lukes all day, twas fun
monday went to chris's and hung out
tuesday went to the mally-pooooo with luuukas
wednesday messed around, went to the show at the bell house, it was reelly funnnn
uhh friday i did something i cant remeber lol
saturday i went to logans house with evan and we jammed
went to starbucks with evan then went to the emo show hells yeahhh!!!! lol that was my uniteresting
break! lol
now im getting reddy for my frist gym class of the year yaaaaaaaaay!
i love u alll
im in a better mood now