and.....
i don't know who i am anymore. i watch videos of me before i became a mommy or just think about my life than...and it's like i am the same person but at the same time a completely different person......hard to explain.
i have no idea how to be the old me. the old me had feelings...and things..haha....i could love people...form attachments with people. now it feels like that just can't happen.
it is like i lost the ability to feel for anyone in the same way that i used to because my love is now reserved for a child...and i don't know the way to have different kinds...i don't want to be selfish..and i feel like in order to feel i'd have to be.
i hope it doesnt get worse since i'm about to have 2 kids.
i have no idea how to be the old me. the old me had feelings...and things..haha....i could love people...form attachments with people. now it feels like that just can't happen.
it is like i lost the ability to feel for anyone in the same way that i used to because my love is now reserved for a child...and i don't know the way to have different kinds...i don't want to be selfish..and i feel like in order to feel i'd have to be.
i hope it doesnt get worse since i'm about to have 2 kids.