for the youth
so im readin back issues of journals and im realizing how much we have all changed, some of us are totally different people, some for better some for worse,this year our youth group will be forever changed and this saddens me greatly, but what saddens me most is much this youth group has changed.i read one entry tonight that stunned me. it was by a newcomer to pinson who said after Discovery weekend that we literally helped change her life for the best. When is the last time we did this? yeah we have new people every week now it seems, but have we talked to them? have we encouraged or changed them in any way? what about all the old members that are disapearing?did we drive them away? did they decide that below the surface all that we stand for meant nothing? that we were empty? this entry talked about how loving and fiercly dedicated we were( we stayed at the church all weekend just so we could live in fellowship with each other and it was AMAZING), are we still like this? people leave in our services, they zone out they goof off, and do any of us really listen? have we lost our basic passion?are we getting lazy or just giving up?i know i havent carried my share of the responsibilites lately have you?do we really want to end this way? maybe it's just me but i think back on some of the awesome things we have done and all we have learned and i wonder if we really live it daily, if we embrace our deeds and faith, our love of Christ and our love to do his work. I want to hear another person say WOW I CAN SEE JESUS IN THESE KIDS!!!!!! i want that feeling i used to get when a new face walked in and i just couldnt wait to go say hi, the feeling i got when i played worship music for the first time and cried while i beat on my snare because i knew that God was working through me, i want to wake up in the morning and instantly start singing praisw songs in my horrible voice, i want to go to school wednesday and be so happy that i was gonna get to go to church that night that i could hardly focus on my work, i want to feel so in Love with God that i start arguments with my dad because he isnt going to church.I want to be so on fire for God that everybody that sees me just cant wait to sing a praise song, i want my co workers to see me dancing while doing the dishes because im singing blessed be your name and think i am totally insane! i want to offend people when i tell them that the song they are listening to is worship to God and not a sappy love song.we have so much potential and i feel like if we dont use it now we may never have the oppurtunity again. I want to say YES LORD when ever i feel like God is telling me to do something and not have a doubt in my mind. so many times i can be singing a worship song or playing in praise band and treat like another friday night football game, i dont want that, i want to burst into tears and drop my sticks because i just cant compose myself any longer i want to be the crazy hobo on the side of the street ministering to people because that is all he wants to do so nothing else matters, if this offends you or makes you mad then good maybe you feel the same way i do