stream of thought
too tired to actually compose sentences but too tired to write in my moleskine cause typing just flows right out of my brain down to my fingers and i type type type until it runs out like my thought tank suddenly being on empty
downloading tv that i missed because i'm so fucking tired but i can't stop thinking can't stop editing can't stop making lists of everything i've done and everything i'm doing because i don't want to forget any second of anything because what if that second is the one that actually matters?
last night i had pretty bad insomnia, nothing helped, i just wanted someone to lay behind me and rub my back and i could listen to them breathing and it would relax me and slow me down i think i need someone to slow me down because right now i can barely catch my breath
tomorrow i have to go fix my phone everytime i call someone it sounds like i have the volume turned all the way up and they're yelling but they're really using their inside voice and my phone is the one yelling it sounds so angry i can't deal with it so hopefully tomorrow i won't get screwed too much and they can just replace it and it'll be easy please please please
today was up too late snoozed too long showered and went to the grocery store as luck would have it where sarah was then we got our iced coffee fix even though it's cold and hauled it to school where i edited down my presentation and tried not to be too nervous went upstairs got my b+ paper which i don't even care a bit about
class was fine presented and felt insanely boring because only my friends care about trans troubles but i don't even really care as long as i got through it and then i ate cake and chips and drank too much wine and i could feel it warming my stomach which is this new feeling i really like
listened to people present about things that i could care less about but ended up sending catty yet hilarious facebook messages back and forth with this girl who i want to be my best friend because i think we're too alike not to be but how do you say that without sounding totally creepy? i think it's pretty much impossible but hopefully we can hang out soon and i will win her over with my charm
back to my room, stress, crying on the phone with my mom (note to self: do not call home ever), texting with k., down to jp, no seats at jp licks, pick up k. and go to city feed where i got my new favorite sandwich of all time turkeybriegrannysmithapples and melt it all together, sit in a booth and listen to someone else's problems to distract me from my own while eating multiple coffee products
now i'm back so tired so so so tired but i need to relax need to decompress need to go home
need love
need love
need love
downloading tv that i missed because i'm so fucking tired but i can't stop thinking can't stop editing can't stop making lists of everything i've done and everything i'm doing because i don't want to forget any second of anything because what if that second is the one that actually matters?
last night i had pretty bad insomnia, nothing helped, i just wanted someone to lay behind me and rub my back and i could listen to them breathing and it would relax me and slow me down i think i need someone to slow me down because right now i can barely catch my breath
tomorrow i have to go fix my phone everytime i call someone it sounds like i have the volume turned all the way up and they're yelling but they're really using their inside voice and my phone is the one yelling it sounds so angry i can't deal with it so hopefully tomorrow i won't get screwed too much and they can just replace it and it'll be easy please please please
today was up too late snoozed too long showered and went to the grocery store as luck would have it where sarah was then we got our iced coffee fix even though it's cold and hauled it to school where i edited down my presentation and tried not to be too nervous went upstairs got my b+ paper which i don't even care a bit about
class was fine presented and felt insanely boring because only my friends care about trans troubles but i don't even really care as long as i got through it and then i ate cake and chips and drank too much wine and i could feel it warming my stomach which is this new feeling i really like
listened to people present about things that i could care less about but ended up sending catty yet hilarious facebook messages back and forth with this girl who i want to be my best friend because i think we're too alike not to be but how do you say that without sounding totally creepy? i think it's pretty much impossible but hopefully we can hang out soon and i will win her over with my charm
back to my room, stress, crying on the phone with my mom (note to self: do not call home ever), texting with k., down to jp, no seats at jp licks, pick up k. and go to city feed where i got my new favorite sandwich of all time turkeybriegrannysmithapples and melt it all together, sit in a booth and listen to someone else's problems to distract me from my own while eating multiple coffee products
now i'm back so tired so so so tired but i need to relax need to decompress need to go home
need love
need love
need love