Jul 07, 2004 22:44
Selek is dying.
i've known her since she was born.
she's had such a hard life and now it's ending.
she's been living with her brother, the last remaining member of her family; now she is dying.
everyone around her is pushing her to live, but she has nothing to live for. Should she be saved, she would live in a box of absolutely nothing until she got sick again. She is ready now, she shouldn't have to suffer twice. She is dying, let her die.
the talent show was a rush, mic didn't work and things got screwed up, but it was fun until i came home. when i came home, it didn't matter at all that we messed up, it didn't. Selek was dying.
i tried to put my self into her world. all that i would want is love. i would not want water, or food, or being moved into comfortable positions, i would just want someone to hold me, and stay right by me until i'm gone. Is that too much?
Selek is not going to be living much longer. She spent her whole life in a cage, and never got to explore or imagine anything. i would have given her my mind if i could. i would have set her free in the wilderness, but i did not have that power. now, she's lost her chance. now, i only wish that i could shoot her in the back of the head to end her suffering. now, i only wish that she could finish off in peace, but instead she is in pain. i only wish her life wouldn't be forgotten. she was never noticed, and now she's dying. we will all remember her when she is dying, but not years after she is dead.
it's too late for me to do anything, not that there was anything to be done, but her life is ending.
all i can do is love her for the night and let her go.
goodnight, Selek