Paralyzing
I'm suffering some kind of paralysis. The kind where your mind works and your thoughts continue to run, but your body stops functioning. When the body does function, it takes a great amount of brain power to create acceleration and gain momentum.
One hypothesis is that my mind wants to do too many different things, or it isn't sure what it wants to do at all. The good news is that the thoughts keep wondering. This is not the same paralysis that you feel when you've worked out so hard or missed so much sleep that your muscles AND your mind can't move. This is the kind where your body doesn't want to move.
It's like I get stuck moving from one movie frame to another. My body is at rest and it wants to remain in rest. I spend over half the week without leaving the house, and I fear that I will develop a phobia of leaving the house.
In a strange way, I think that the fact that my mind continually thinks and ponders is what is creating this paralysis. That if I didn't think so much, my brain wouldn't stop my body from moving.
One hypothesis is that my mind wants to do too many different things, or it isn't sure what it wants to do at all. The good news is that the thoughts keep wondering. This is not the same paralysis that you feel when you've worked out so hard or missed so much sleep that your muscles AND your mind can't move. This is the kind where your body doesn't want to move.
It's like I get stuck moving from one movie frame to another. My body is at rest and it wants to remain in rest. I spend over half the week without leaving the house, and I fear that I will develop a phobia of leaving the house.
In a strange way, I think that the fact that my mind continually thinks and ponders is what is creating this paralysis. That if I didn't think so much, my brain wouldn't stop my body from moving.