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This is the second post today.
I had a really fun night.
But I have alot on my mind.
I told my godfather I was staying at my mom's house but I really went to Sheperdstown with Josh and Elise to meet up with Carrie, Jodi, Jeremy, and Chris. It was really boring at first but we ended up playing Ultimate Frisbee in the middle of the road with this light up frisbee. It was so fun.
Right now, I'm watching Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. I just took a pill to make me sleep, it's 5:00 in the morning. I have to be up by 10. I'm not looking forward to it at all.
I feel like my mom and I are becoming really distant and I don't like it at all.
I feel like I haven't been telling her all that I should, when I used to tell her everything that I did. The wrongs and the rights. But now, I really feel like I'm living this huge lie. Lying to everyone else, and lying to myself. I hate it.
I hate it so much.
I honestly don't even know what to do with myself anymore.
I'm a wreck.
And I'm admitting that to myself.
It hasn't been like this for a long time, but now things seem to be different. They seem to be changing.
Going downhill.
I guess that's the way things in life go.
The ups and the downs.
I just hope it gets better soon.
I can't live like this.
I liked being happy.
But it's just not working out lately.
I'm going to sleep.
I had a really fun night.
But I have alot on my mind.
I told my godfather I was staying at my mom's house but I really went to Sheperdstown with Josh and Elise to meet up with Carrie, Jodi, Jeremy, and Chris. It was really boring at first but we ended up playing Ultimate Frisbee in the middle of the road with this light up frisbee. It was so fun.
Right now, I'm watching Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. I just took a pill to make me sleep, it's 5:00 in the morning. I have to be up by 10. I'm not looking forward to it at all.
I feel like my mom and I are becoming really distant and I don't like it at all.
I feel like I haven't been telling her all that I should, when I used to tell her everything that I did. The wrongs and the rights. But now, I really feel like I'm living this huge lie. Lying to everyone else, and lying to myself. I hate it.
I hate it so much.
I honestly don't even know what to do with myself anymore.
I'm a wreck.
And I'm admitting that to myself.
It hasn't been like this for a long time, but now things seem to be different. They seem to be changing.
Going downhill.
I guess that's the way things in life go.
The ups and the downs.
I just hope it gets better soon.
I can't live like this.
I liked being happy.
But it's just not working out lately.
I'm going to sleep.