Missing
Going to some wedding today. it's gonna suck ass. wearing my prom dress except this time i won't forget the jewelry that goes with it.
i hate weddings. the woman always get upset at me for something, and when she does, for some reason i think about my brother. so i've written a little something.
MISSING
Is it possible to miss someone
Whom you have never met?
I have heard about you
But then never again
As if your name was taboo, as if no one missed you
But I do
And yet...I have never met you
Brother, you died before I can say "hello"
Before I can know you
And I wonder from time to time
What it would be like to have you here
What it would be like if you were there
During fights
Would you have been the one to stop them?
To call the police before they got serious
To be the one to hold us
Comfort us and tell us everything
Is going to be ok
What it would be likeif you were there
During my desire for death
When everyone made fun of me
Told me they don't care if I'm alive
Would you have been the one
To silence those outrageous statements?
What it would be like if you were there
During my feelings of violation
When they betrayed me
Taking advantage of my naivete
Would you have been the one
To keep an eye on me
And not leave me alone with them
What it would be like if you were there
During all the times I was compared
When mother would tell me how everyone else is better in some way
And how much I suck
Would you have been the one
To love me, and tell me that I'm fine just the way I am
I'll never know though
Because you're MISSING
And i miss you
i hate weddings. the woman always get upset at me for something, and when she does, for some reason i think about my brother. so i've written a little something.
MISSING
Is it possible to miss someone
Whom you have never met?
I have heard about you
But then never again
As if your name was taboo, as if no one missed you
But I do
And yet...I have never met you
Brother, you died before I can say "hello"
Before I can know you
And I wonder from time to time
What it would be like to have you here
What it would be like if you were there
During fights
Would you have been the one to stop them?
To call the police before they got serious
To be the one to hold us
Comfort us and tell us everything
Is going to be ok
What it would be likeif you were there
During my desire for death
When everyone made fun of me
Told me they don't care if I'm alive
Would you have been the one
To silence those outrageous statements?
What it would be like if you were there
During my feelings of violation
When they betrayed me
Taking advantage of my naivete
Would you have been the one
To keep an eye on me
And not leave me alone with them
What it would be like if you were there
During all the times I was compared
When mother would tell me how everyone else is better in some way
And how much I suck
Would you have been the one
To love me, and tell me that I'm fine just the way I am
I'll never know though
Because you're MISSING
And i miss you