Reality.
It's week 4 of the new school sem! School's boring and the fucked up timetable just worsens my school life. Well as usual, school is boring. Lectures, tutorials and labs... it's week 4 already but i think i haven't learnt a single shit. I NEED TO START CONCENTRATING IN CLASS.
I have no idea what DFUND and EMATHS2 is all about. It's worst when you have teachers that you can't even understand what they're talking about due to their weird accent. "Lagic?" AH FML. Maths is a killer subject i swear. I WAS NEVER GOOD WITH MATHS ANYWAY... Now i think o level maths are so much easier!
To sum it up, i guess it was a bad start to a new semester with so much things happening. Things that really affected me; the cause of those sleepless nights where i would just lie in bed the whole night thinking... I felt like a zombie in school, my mind was empty, my brain and heart feels empty too. I dreaded going to school because i felt like shit.
There are a thousand things i want to ask but i just don't have the courage to. Sometimes i wonder why i'm such a weakling... I really hate myself at such times. And in the end, as a coward, i kept all the things i've been dying to know inside me.
Shall stop talking about this, i don't wanna make myself go back to that stage again.
Btw, I NEED A NEW WEEKEND JOB!!!! Anyone has any recommendations? Please leave a comment or contact me alright! I'll love you! :)
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Should i or should i not?