so much to say
so little desire to say it to your face. or on the phone, or even instant messenger. I'm okay with us having broken up, but your timing couldn't be worse. nor your reasons. You're drinking like crazy and getting yourself deep in debt already, all on booze... Those don't sound like worrisome behaviours to you? Just because i don't want to party every weekend and spend money neither of us have, everything you said in the last few months is taken back. You never meant a word of it, did you? you may have loved me once, years ago... but you don't anymore. i'm not really worth it to you, you didn't want to keep dating me when i was leaving in the first place. i should have realized then that i was just a piece of ass, a security blanket, an accessory. I'm staying here because of you; because you make me feel like a waste of time and effort and emotion. I'm staying here to stay away from you. I can't say it in private, but i can post it for the world to see, so they can know my heart is laid bare, what's left of it. You lied to me, and now i now that there really isn't such a thing as true ever-lasting love.