you are my fire and i am your rain
somebody please rescue me from this state of mind i have found myself aghast in. these subordinate walls cave in to my thoughts, the ones i am trying to save for you. i am putting myself in a place of solace therefore please do not disturb me. once i am ready i will devour my answers and respond to your plea.
it is 4:42 in the morning. it is one of those few and far between nights where i can not find any ounce of sleep within my eyes. wtf is going on? i feel like i want to visit every single person on earth and tell them how special they are to me. yet i feel like there is no one to really accomplish this task for because it would be unexpected and i would feel too boisterous doing so. but damn it, if you are reading this. i <3 you. i truly honestly do. i can't stand my shyness. my biggest fear is ppl around me not knowing how important they are because i am too quiet to speak up.
some say im caught in the middle but i know exactlly where i am at.
we could hook up, hang out or just chill. why am i so freaking vague, it honestly kills me.
this whole moving on process is killing me as well. i hate talking about it, i hate dwelling on it, i hate trying to decide for you, i hate justifying my reasoning, i hate apologizing, i hate fighting, and i pretty much hate everything that went down. friendship or one long ass gap in this relationship until u and i can handle each other's emotion once again. acceptance. if you didn't want to know, then why should one ask? compromise doesn't work because we want two things that are on opposite ends of the spectrum. you are red and i am purple. you are my best friend. i wouldn't do one thing to hurt you but i will do what i please because this whole selfish thing just isn't working. why be selfish? why be liars? why be regretful? why be sad?
well i am off to write some real shit, inspiration is flooding through my brain.