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I really don't understand how people get off on treating innocent people meanly. I really don't. I guess they conjure up this whole idea in their mind that the person they are treating badly deserves that kind of attention. It's really crazy. People are so judgmental. They don't know anything about you yet they've made their minds up and will treat you any such way as if the world revolves around their thoughts.
I feel a whole lot better about life. I still have certain issues but not as harsh as they were before. I felt pretty caught between hopelessness and hopefulness but now I am just hopeful. I feel content again and that is how everyone should feel. Worrying about certain things like the detriment of the future really will bring you a world of devastation. I also want to say that God is faithful. He will bring you out of the worse if you trust in Him. I have learned so much about myself while I guess, I have been suffering. I have learned a lot ... and if you just trust in Him and let go of everything you think you know ... He will allow His way to be done. Just step out of the way. I have learned so much that I would type here but I have to find where I wrote all of it down. I don't want to forget. Some things I will just keep to myself because they will only make sense to me and I just like to keep some things secret but just know that I love God more than anything and anyone and I always will. When everyone in the world fails you God is there.
God willing I want to try out for the Disney College Program. I figure that is the closest I am going to get to an internship without really having to know a whole bunch of people. I can either do the interview online or go to the one on campus. I guess I'll go to the one on campus. I need to read more about it, though.
I also feel like I am two different people at certain times. When I am shy I don't really want to open my mouth nor speak. When I feel comfortable I want to be loud and goofy. I am sort of two-faced in that sense. I keep remembering that one episode from My So-Called Life where she says something like, "Don't you hate it when you have to be a different version of yourself around certain people, especially when the same people you are different around are expecting to talk to you at the same time/in the same place" or something like that. She probably said it more eloquently or whatever but I feel like that most of the time. I don't like it :D
I feel a whole lot better about life. I still have certain issues but not as harsh as they were before. I felt pretty caught between hopelessness and hopefulness but now I am just hopeful. I feel content again and that is how everyone should feel. Worrying about certain things like the detriment of the future really will bring you a world of devastation. I also want to say that God is faithful. He will bring you out of the worse if you trust in Him. I have learned so much about myself while I guess, I have been suffering. I have learned a lot ... and if you just trust in Him and let go of everything you think you know ... He will allow His way to be done. Just step out of the way. I have learned so much that I would type here but I have to find where I wrote all of it down. I don't want to forget. Some things I will just keep to myself because they will only make sense to me and I just like to keep some things secret but just know that I love God more than anything and anyone and I always will. When everyone in the world fails you God is there.
God willing I want to try out for the Disney College Program. I figure that is the closest I am going to get to an internship without really having to know a whole bunch of people. I can either do the interview online or go to the one on campus. I guess I'll go to the one on campus. I need to read more about it, though.
I also feel like I am two different people at certain times. When I am shy I don't really want to open my mouth nor speak. When I feel comfortable I want to be loud and goofy. I am sort of two-faced in that sense. I keep remembering that one episode from My So-Called Life where she says something like, "Don't you hate it when you have to be a different version of yourself around certain people, especially when the same people you are different around are expecting to talk to you at the same time/in the same place" or something like that. She probably said it more eloquently or whatever but I feel like that most of the time. I don't like it :D