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I am being absolutely pathetic right now. I realize this, but there is nothing I can do about it at this point. I'm stressed out to the point where I can hardly think, can't eat, and don't know who I've been lately.
The only thing I can think of is how I need to apologize to a list of people that exceeds the number of fingers on my hands. I can't do that. I can't apologize. That's definitely my weakest point. I've never been able to say "I'm sorry" and explain it. In this situation, those two words are far from enough.
This self pity thing is getting old fast. Don't get me wrong, I love myself inside, but I still get sick to my stomach when I see myself in a mirror. So I've had this problem once before.. there are very few people who know much about it because I wasn't around, but I don't want to fall back into that mindset or those habits. Especially not with this summer and fall drawing nearer.
I just want to be me again.
♥
The only thing I can think of is how I need to apologize to a list of people that exceeds the number of fingers on my hands. I can't do that. I can't apologize. That's definitely my weakest point. I've never been able to say "I'm sorry" and explain it. In this situation, those two words are far from enough.
This self pity thing is getting old fast. Don't get me wrong, I love myself inside, but I still get sick to my stomach when I see myself in a mirror. So I've had this problem once before.. there are very few people who know much about it because I wasn't around, but I don't want to fall back into that mindset or those habits. Especially not with this summer and fall drawing nearer.
I just want to be me again.
♥