Self-mutilation is something new I decided to explore with him in SP alone, actually. I don't think he sits in a corner and cuts himself. It's more of a knee-jerk kind of a thing, whenever he's triggered or has to talk about Edelweiss in any way. To be quite honest, in this game? I had wanted to play with the idea of writing Sasuke as sort of teetering on the edge of batshit bonkers. It was something new and interesting--and after writing him for so gosh darn long, it seemed like an intriguing route to take. I wanted him violent, wild and without real direction. Honestly, I've never really seen Sasuke as calculating. He's always sort of acted on his emotions. The way he throws himself into fights is a lot like Naruto, honestly, and when he loses them? He beats the shit out of himself. Edelweiss, to him, was a massive failure. He couldn't protect himself or save himself from being a rat in a cage, and that fucked with him.
The teaching thing. Sasuke isn't really doing this out of any sort of benevolence. The way I've (hopefully) established it, Sasuke is at war with Siren's Port. He thinks it's just another big cage, and he hates being lorded over in any way. Even before St. E, Sasuke never had a home. He had his goal--kill Itachi. Since Sasuke is fresh from that (without having ever met Madara; he literally is taken right from when he flops down after that fight with Itachi), he doesn't really have...anything else. Itachi is dead. Now what? He doesn't have direction anymore. So when the other St. E kids started setting down and getting jobs, he began resenting them. He thought it was bowing down, throwing in the towel. He feels that they're stuck there just like in St. E and that they should be doing their damnedest to get out, not trying to formulate a normal life. By teaching people, he sort of has a semblance of a 'job'--aka a means to survive--and is sort of instilling his own views about SP to the students. Fight back, scratch and claw, fuck with this place as much as you can. Killing monsters is essentially what keeps him grounded-- It's therapeutic, it's a way to vent, and it's a way to deal with all the awful regrets he has about letting people fuck with him in St. E.
Man, I get that my Sasuke is different. Trust me. I honestly play him as much more harsh and abrasive than he might actually be, because I feel like too many Sasuke rpers write him as completely static. He gives one-word replies, barely instigates anything, and is cool as a cucumber. I was sort of sick of that. I wanted to bring something fresh, a Sasuke that's skittish and volatile and unpredictable. Since St E Sasuke has gone to be in one other game, The Spider's Walk, which was complete AU. Sasuke changed even more then, and by the time I got to SP? I might have totally lost the root of him
This isn't really...a justification, though, so I want you to know that. You're on the mark with what you're saying, trust me. I'm not arguing with you. I know that I've completely lost sight of the canon character. The question is where to really go from here. :T The solution is obviously a canon review, but I'm...not really all that sure I want to do that. I'm not sure if I want to change my interpretation of him, if that makes sense? If it's a huge problem, then the solution might be to just drop. Honestly I really have to think about it, because I've never been in this situation before. I've never completely lost interest in a canon and yet kept rping from it. So...hmm. I obviously have a lot of thinking to do, but I really appreciate you taking the time to write this out. It was great writing with you, and I'm sorry I couldn't give you a good solid Sasuke to play off of. I hope you can find yourself a totally awesome one. C:
If you have any suggestions, please don't hesitate to let me know.
The teaching thing. Sasuke isn't really doing this out of any sort of benevolence. The way I've (hopefully) established it, Sasuke is at war with Siren's Port. He thinks it's just another big cage, and he hates being lorded over in any way. Even before St. E, Sasuke never had a home. He had his goal--kill Itachi. Since Sasuke is fresh from that (without having ever met Madara; he literally is taken right from when he flops down after that fight with Itachi), he doesn't really have...anything else. Itachi is dead. Now what? He doesn't have direction anymore. So when the other St. E kids started setting down and getting jobs, he began resenting them. He thought it was bowing down, throwing in the towel. He feels that they're stuck there just like in St. E and that they should be doing their damnedest to get out, not trying to formulate a normal life. By teaching people, he sort of has a semblance of a 'job'--aka a means to survive--and is sort of instilling his own views about SP to the students. Fight back, scratch and claw, fuck with this place as much as you can. Killing monsters is essentially what keeps him grounded-- It's therapeutic, it's a way to vent, and it's a way to deal with all the awful regrets he has about letting people fuck with him in St. E.
Man, I get that my Sasuke is different. Trust me. I honestly play him as much more harsh and abrasive than he might actually be, because I feel like too many Sasuke rpers write him as completely static. He gives one-word replies, barely instigates anything, and is cool as a cucumber. I was sort of sick of that. I wanted to bring something fresh, a Sasuke that's skittish and volatile and unpredictable. Since St E Sasuke has gone to be in one other game, The Spider's Walk, which was complete AU. Sasuke changed even more then, and by the time I got to SP? I might have totally lost the root of him
This isn't really...a justification, though, so I want you to know that. You're on the mark with what you're saying, trust me. I'm not arguing with you. I know that I've completely lost sight of the canon character. The question is where to really go from here. :T The solution is obviously a canon review, but I'm...not really all that sure I want to do that. I'm not sure if I want to change my interpretation of him, if that makes sense? If it's a huge problem, then the solution might be to just drop. Honestly I really have to think about it, because I've never been in this situation before. I've never completely lost interest in a canon and yet kept rping from it. So...hmm. I obviously have a lot of thinking to do, but I really appreciate you taking the time to write this out. It was great writing with you, and I'm sorry I couldn't give you a good solid Sasuke to play off of. I hope you can find yourself a totally awesome one. C:
If you have any suggestions, please don't hesitate to let me know.
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