And On And On And On...
So lately I've been sort of... reevaluating what I've been doing with my self. A sort of quarter life crisis, if you will. What I keep on coming back to is the balancing act that I seem to need, or rather need to perfect.
On one side is my desire to better myself and the need to be recognized by both those I know personally (friends, family and such) and be known by those I don't know (potential friends, strangers, the world as a whole). On the other side of this laudably laughable teeter-totter sits firmly my need to just be, the desire to simply exist and fucking enjoy it. It would be an achievable enough balancing act if it weren't for my dear friend indecision.
That bastard, running back and forth between the need to be and the need to want, laughing like the jackal he is. It would be easy enough to blame my constantly alternating desires on this largest of my personal demons, but realistically, it's always been my choice.
With that said, I will now clumsily segue into the reason for this post, school. As many of you know I've had a great desire (to be truthful it's been more of a sick lust) to go to The Savannah College of Art and Design (SCAD) but lately I've realized that this desire stems more from my want of some great, sweeping, life changing, momentous event, rather than an actual desire to further my education. Do not mistake me, I do greatly desire further education, but I should pursue this as a need in itself, not as a means to change the things about myself which I do not like.
So don't expect me to be taking off just yet, like it or not I'm sticking around.
On one side is my desire to better myself and the need to be recognized by both those I know personally (friends, family and such) and be known by those I don't know (potential friends, strangers, the world as a whole). On the other side of this laudably laughable teeter-totter sits firmly my need to just be, the desire to simply exist and fucking enjoy it. It would be an achievable enough balancing act if it weren't for my dear friend indecision.
That bastard, running back and forth between the need to be and the need to want, laughing like the jackal he is. It would be easy enough to blame my constantly alternating desires on this largest of my personal demons, but realistically, it's always been my choice.
With that said, I will now clumsily segue into the reason for this post, school. As many of you know I've had a great desire (to be truthful it's been more of a sick lust) to go to The Savannah College of Art and Design (SCAD) but lately I've realized that this desire stems more from my want of some great, sweeping, life changing, momentous event, rather than an actual desire to further my education. Do not mistake me, I do greatly desire further education, but I should pursue this as a need in itself, not as a means to change the things about myself which I do not like.
So don't expect me to be taking off just yet, like it or not I'm sticking around.