2013 Recap in pictures and words
As is tradition, here's my recap of 2013.
Where to begin? It was up, it was down. As with all things negative, the Bads seem to outweigh the Good, but it's just not true. They're just louder and more painful. My boyfriend of 3 years broke up with me. That was Bad, but not without Good. I'd been dealing with years of abandonment issues that only came to a head at Burning Man. When things came to an end, I realized I had been freed. That was Good, but not without Bad. Once again, I was alone, and even without the abandonment, the instant loneliness was crushing. To cope, I started a Tumblr blog focused on my bi-polar issues ( http://scramblednoodle.tumblr.com ) and my medication was increased. I went through a lot more therapy, and had some serious breakdowns, but I'm through it. 2014 started with the crushing weight of the year collapsing on me, but thanks to a friend, I was able to cry it out.
Despite all this, a lot of has happened. Bean is ever a delight. My jazz band, Reveille and the Swingin' Tails (formerly SuperPack), performed at FC 2013, and will perform again at FC 2014, as well as BLFC 2014. I've opened up about emotions and sexuality, and I've gotten in touch with my transvestite tendencies, and my gender dysphoria in general. FC 2013 was pretty mediocre, aside from the band, and my stage fright once again made me forget part of the kung fu sequence on stage. Not only that, but I was a bit resentful of the outcome, thanks to my obsession with winning. Couple that with some snarky comments from some folks, and it just put me in a really bad mindset. BLFC 2013 and MFF 2013 were both amazing times, so it made up for it. Burning Man 2013 was up and down. I saw lots of neat stuff, I did lots of neat things, but it was coupled with a rough start, a rough middle, and a rough end, culminating in my breakup. I got into R/C cars (for the wrong reasons) but it was still fun. I also got into Amateur Radio, but thanks to -things- I got out just as fast, and good riddance. I got back into the swing of photography, did a lot of experimentation, especially around photos at Frolic. And I've been trying to be more present overall, to live in the moment and not dwelling on the past and future.
And then, the motorcycle. Love and hate. I love riding. I LOVE IT. Over the years I've come to hate driving, but the bike. OH MY GOD the bike. Until it broke. And then broke again. And then broke again. But between the breaking it's been one of the things helping to keep my sanity. I've put over 1000 miles on it, and my love for my little 250 is no less.
Finally, I married two couples. The first was two very good friends of mine, Dreamous and spelunker_sal. The ceremony was beautiful. I'd link the video of it, but it's still private, due to family concerns. I met a lot of really great people there, too. The second was my good friends Whiteyfawks and Sylffor, done over dinner and beers. I hope there'll be a real ceremony at some point.
Yeah. So up and down, Good and Bad. Which, I suppose, is normal for Life, the Universe, and Everything.
2014 started on a down, but the theme of this year is Possibilities. The sky's the limit. I'm dating again (no relationship yet, just dates with people), I'm meeting people, I'm less concerned about pleasing others, and more concerned with being open, mentally, physically, and sexually. As always, I make no resolutions; those are just excuses to procrastinate. It's on me to make things happen, but to let them happen as they happen, rather than trying to force them to happen.
Without further blabbing, the photos. Have a great 2014, Happy New Year, and gung hei fat choi from this noodle dragoness.
Where to begin? It was up, it was down. As with all things negative, the Bads seem to outweigh the Good, but it's just not true. They're just louder and more painful. My boyfriend of 3 years broke up with me. That was Bad, but not without Good. I'd been dealing with years of abandonment issues that only came to a head at Burning Man. When things came to an end, I realized I had been freed. That was Good, but not without Bad. Once again, I was alone, and even without the abandonment, the instant loneliness was crushing. To cope, I started a Tumblr blog focused on my bi-polar issues ( http://scramblednoodle.tumblr.com ) and my medication was increased. I went through a lot more therapy, and had some serious breakdowns, but I'm through it. 2014 started with the crushing weight of the year collapsing on me, but thanks to a friend, I was able to cry it out.
Despite all this, a lot of has happened. Bean is ever a delight. My jazz band, Reveille and the Swingin' Tails (formerly SuperPack), performed at FC 2013, and will perform again at FC 2014, as well as BLFC 2014. I've opened up about emotions and sexuality, and I've gotten in touch with my transvestite tendencies, and my gender dysphoria in general. FC 2013 was pretty mediocre, aside from the band, and my stage fright once again made me forget part of the kung fu sequence on stage. Not only that, but I was a bit resentful of the outcome, thanks to my obsession with winning. Couple that with some snarky comments from some folks, and it just put me in a really bad mindset. BLFC 2013 and MFF 2013 were both amazing times, so it made up for it. Burning Man 2013 was up and down. I saw lots of neat stuff, I did lots of neat things, but it was coupled with a rough start, a rough middle, and a rough end, culminating in my breakup. I got into R/C cars (for the wrong reasons) but it was still fun. I also got into Amateur Radio, but thanks to -things- I got out just as fast, and good riddance. I got back into the swing of photography, did a lot of experimentation, especially around photos at Frolic. And I've been trying to be more present overall, to live in the moment and not dwelling on the past and future.
And then, the motorcycle. Love and hate. I love riding. I LOVE IT. Over the years I've come to hate driving, but the bike. OH MY GOD the bike. Until it broke. And then broke again. And then broke again. But between the breaking it's been one of the things helping to keep my sanity. I've put over 1000 miles on it, and my love for my little 250 is no less.
Finally, I married two couples. The first was two very good friends of mine, Dreamous and spelunker_sal. The ceremony was beautiful. I'd link the video of it, but it's still private, due to family concerns. I met a lot of really great people there, too. The second was my good friends Whiteyfawks and Sylffor, done over dinner and beers. I hope there'll be a real ceremony at some point.
Yeah. So up and down, Good and Bad. Which, I suppose, is normal for Life, the Universe, and Everything.
2014 started on a down, but the theme of this year is Possibilities. The sky's the limit. I'm dating again (no relationship yet, just dates with people), I'm meeting people, I'm less concerned about pleasing others, and more concerned with being open, mentally, physically, and sexually. As always, I make no resolutions; those are just excuses to procrastinate. It's on me to make things happen, but to let them happen as they happen, rather than trying to force them to happen.
Without further blabbing, the photos. Have a great 2014, Happy New Year, and gung hei fat choi from this noodle dragoness.
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