I don't know what to say
Blah...another day in the life of Charles....Been an eventful weekend and then some! Yet no matter how much fun I have...I always feel empty in the end...I know I should stop complaining about this but.....I'm just so tired of not having a warm body to hold...I'm tired of just being a third wheel...I just wish I could see the end of this problem in sight...I'm tired of being alone relationship wise...I'm tired of my friends being able to have the things I desire...I'm tired of myself being jealous at my friends...it's been almost 3 years since I last had Audrey in my life and now I'm a wreck... I think about calling her everyday now...It feels like she is the only girl that would ever be with me....and I yearn for that...to be wanted...to be held...to be told I'm loved...when will I get past this nice guy phase and move on with my life into assholedom. What do I need to do? Drink heavily? Do drugs? Get into fights? Why can't I just be me and have women love me for that? End readable rant....