Hrm
This has nothing to do with anything just me babbling.
I sit here and think of all the horrible things happening blocking out the light of the hope I carry everywhere. My walls are built to let noone in...unfortunatly it leaves me stuck in here alone. I cry for help but I only hear the echos of my voice carry throughout my cage. The voices inside my head are all coming from my own voice...How can I tell what I really mean in this phone game I call my thoughts. What did the message really mean in the beginning and why has it evolved and changed so much from what it was...Wasn't the purest part of truth enough? Why did I have to build upon it and make it seem more special?
Trapped in the eyes of others as a happy person, where is my Oscar or Emmy for my act that I do everyday? How can they not see what is really on the inside of me? I guess I'll chalk it up to them not caring or worrying about what some nobody in their eyes. I'm tired of wearing their mask to make them blind to the suffering of others. Why can't I be who I am now? Will that disrupt so much in their lives? They see suffering everyday on the news, but since it isn't in their backyard then it doesn't matter.
Still alone yet held up by so many. Why is it that all those dear to me feel so distant from me...is it me pushing them away or are they too scared to get close? I'm too scared to think of the possiblity of living without them. Since I can't live for myself....I live for them...How can I live if they are gone? The thought scares me. I don't want to be alone, but I can't keep anybody close. Must I live in this hollow abyss that I've created for myself. Did I leave myself a ladder to get out or will I be stuck here forever? The thoughts overwhelm me as I draw breath frantically. As I keep reinforcing my wall I give myself no more room to move till I create my own tomb inside my head.
Okay enough of that mindless sad drivle! Couple things that I wanted to bring up...Kali is a good driver! I don't care what anybody says! I'm looking forward to this weekend. I get to see Randy on Saturday night and that will be nice to be among alot of my friends again. Hrm...I think that's it for now back to doing nothing!
I sit here and think of all the horrible things happening blocking out the light of the hope I carry everywhere. My walls are built to let noone in...unfortunatly it leaves me stuck in here alone. I cry for help but I only hear the echos of my voice carry throughout my cage. The voices inside my head are all coming from my own voice...How can I tell what I really mean in this phone game I call my thoughts. What did the message really mean in the beginning and why has it evolved and changed so much from what it was...Wasn't the purest part of truth enough? Why did I have to build upon it and make it seem more special?
Trapped in the eyes of others as a happy person, where is my Oscar or Emmy for my act that I do everyday? How can they not see what is really on the inside of me? I guess I'll chalk it up to them not caring or worrying about what some nobody in their eyes. I'm tired of wearing their mask to make them blind to the suffering of others. Why can't I be who I am now? Will that disrupt so much in their lives? They see suffering everyday on the news, but since it isn't in their backyard then it doesn't matter.
Still alone yet held up by so many. Why is it that all those dear to me feel so distant from me...is it me pushing them away or are they too scared to get close? I'm too scared to think of the possiblity of living without them. Since I can't live for myself....I live for them...How can I live if they are gone? The thought scares me. I don't want to be alone, but I can't keep anybody close. Must I live in this hollow abyss that I've created for myself. Did I leave myself a ladder to get out or will I be stuck here forever? The thoughts overwhelm me as I draw breath frantically. As I keep reinforcing my wall I give myself no more room to move till I create my own tomb inside my head.
Okay enough of that mindless sad drivle! Couple things that I wanted to bring up...Kali is a good driver! I don't care what anybody says! I'm looking forward to this weekend. I get to see Randy on Saturday night and that will be nice to be among alot of my friends again. Hrm...I think that's it for now back to doing nothing!