start over again?
I am thinking of picking up and moving to Linden, MI where Adam and I can live with his dad for a while.
I am thinking a lot about what I will miss and what I will not miss.
Knoxville doesn't seem like a place I want to stay in. I may have gotten too comfortable? Maybe I am just getting comfortable?
Many whom I know around here are connected to me ex-boyfriend, which is another downside of being here. Even though many of them know Adam and enjoy both of us, we can often get the cold shoulder from that crowd even if it is not intended. It is understandable as they have all known Taylor for a very long time... but they are some of the few people that would make me nostalgic about Knoxville.
Another crowd that I am just getting to know better is KSO people. It is a wide range of ages, yes, but many good people that are amazingly talented and caring for one another. Still, I feel slightly odd in the mix. I have never felt a true sense of belonging here... only a few individuals have been close to me. The one closest to me is not from here, and wants to leave. When we met, we both wanted to leave. Neither of us ever really liked it here. Adam would love to go back home to Michigan where there is hockey that he can actually watch, culture that he understands, and he can go to a bar without having to listen to bluegrass or country/western music. That is all understandable to me... it sounds much more stimulating that this environment.
There is some great music in Knoxville, though, and most of it is created by the people I know best here. Most of it is jazzy, eclectic, delightful. I just have a hard time feeling exhilarated by a lot of it. And as far as being inspired to work with people... I actually have felt a lot of musical snobbery in the air around here. I certainly would not accuse any individual of that, but it tends to be a group mentality. Aside from the snobbery thing, though, I feel disconnected with a lot of people as far as musical taste. I like very explosive and intense music... many times the lyrics are the last thing I notice and some bands that are often viewed as generic I think are extraordinary for making a type of sound no other band does...
Either way... there is nothing I hate more than musical snobbery. And around here... it tends to be in the air.
A lot of things here, just linger in the air...
Maybe it is time to leave.
I am thinking a lot about what I will miss and what I will not miss.
Knoxville doesn't seem like a place I want to stay in. I may have gotten too comfortable? Maybe I am just getting comfortable?
Many whom I know around here are connected to me ex-boyfriend, which is another downside of being here. Even though many of them know Adam and enjoy both of us, we can often get the cold shoulder from that crowd even if it is not intended. It is understandable as they have all known Taylor for a very long time... but they are some of the few people that would make me nostalgic about Knoxville.
Another crowd that I am just getting to know better is KSO people. It is a wide range of ages, yes, but many good people that are amazingly talented and caring for one another. Still, I feel slightly odd in the mix. I have never felt a true sense of belonging here... only a few individuals have been close to me. The one closest to me is not from here, and wants to leave. When we met, we both wanted to leave. Neither of us ever really liked it here. Adam would love to go back home to Michigan where there is hockey that he can actually watch, culture that he understands, and he can go to a bar without having to listen to bluegrass or country/western music. That is all understandable to me... it sounds much more stimulating that this environment.
There is some great music in Knoxville, though, and most of it is created by the people I know best here. Most of it is jazzy, eclectic, delightful. I just have a hard time feeling exhilarated by a lot of it. And as far as being inspired to work with people... I actually have felt a lot of musical snobbery in the air around here. I certainly would not accuse any individual of that, but it tends to be a group mentality. Aside from the snobbery thing, though, I feel disconnected with a lot of people as far as musical taste. I like very explosive and intense music... many times the lyrics are the last thing I notice and some bands that are often viewed as generic I think are extraordinary for making a type of sound no other band does...
Either way... there is nothing I hate more than musical snobbery. And around here... it tends to be in the air.
A lot of things here, just linger in the air...
Maybe it is time to leave.