Memoirs of a Techie
So it's been quite some time since my last entry. I'm here, I'm alive. So much has been going on in my life. SNL came and went, and was amazing. It was a great feeling to be on stage again.
Urinetown is half over. That has given me my fair share of frustrations, which I won't go into here.
I've been dating John now for 5 and a half months. And I'm scared. I'm scared that distance will hurt more than we can stand, and that kills me. He means so much to me, and I can't bear to see things trail off because we don't get to see each other enough. My life has always been, and always will be, stressful and busy, and I've always managed to deal with it. Now I have a new factor that makes me scared. Scared that he won't be able to keep up with me.
I don't tell people any of this. Because to everyone else, I'm all happy and smily about everything in my life, and I don't want to ruin anyone's view of me. But I have issues too. Issues that I really want to work out. I'm not used to depending on other people without thinking about it. I think that's the next level for me.
On top of all that, Jess and I proposed to direct a show in the Spring tonight. Our show was the one that didn't get passed. I'm not gonna sugar coat it-- it sucks. It really sucks, especially because of circumstances surrounding the passing of another show. But life goes on.
I'm auditioning for Gross Indecency : The Three Trials of Oscar Wilde tomorrow night. Now I just need to memorize the monologue. Wish me luck.
Also, I'm joining Sigma Phi Epsilon. Tomorrow night is my final presentation, and I'll find out if I'm in or not. I won't say it out loud, but I'm actually very nervous. I hope that Karma isn't going to deny me just because they think it's funny to see me fail in such rapid succession. Methinks Fate might have a new boyfriend...
Life will be hitting a major turning point very soon, and I hope that all aspects of it will be able to continue on. I will prove that my life is sustainable, or fail miserably in the process.
-Z
Urinetown is half over. That has given me my fair share of frustrations, which I won't go into here.
I've been dating John now for 5 and a half months. And I'm scared. I'm scared that distance will hurt more than we can stand, and that kills me. He means so much to me, and I can't bear to see things trail off because we don't get to see each other enough. My life has always been, and always will be, stressful and busy, and I've always managed to deal with it. Now I have a new factor that makes me scared. Scared that he won't be able to keep up with me.
I don't tell people any of this. Because to everyone else, I'm all happy and smily about everything in my life, and I don't want to ruin anyone's view of me. But I have issues too. Issues that I really want to work out. I'm not used to depending on other people without thinking about it. I think that's the next level for me.
On top of all that, Jess and I proposed to direct a show in the Spring tonight. Our show was the one that didn't get passed. I'm not gonna sugar coat it-- it sucks. It really sucks, especially because of circumstances surrounding the passing of another show. But life goes on.
I'm auditioning for Gross Indecency : The Three Trials of Oscar Wilde tomorrow night. Now I just need to memorize the monologue. Wish me luck.
Also, I'm joining Sigma Phi Epsilon. Tomorrow night is my final presentation, and I'll find out if I'm in or not. I won't say it out loud, but I'm actually very nervous. I hope that Karma isn't going to deny me just because they think it's funny to see me fail in such rapid succession. Methinks Fate might have a new boyfriend...
Life will be hitting a major turning point very soon, and I hope that all aspects of it will be able to continue on. I will prove that my life is sustainable, or fail miserably in the process.
-Z