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sometimes people change your life.
for the better, or maybe not, but regardless, sometimes people really make an impact.
and i can't get over how fucking weird it is when those people aren't in your life anymore.
it's not terrible, just fucking..weird.
i don't miss these people,
it just seems pointless to have such a 'friendship' with someone,
and then one day pretend like you don't know them.

See them in the hall way and don't smile.
the mall, don't acknowledge.

walking down their fucking street, for what ever fucking reason, and not even stopping to say hi.
but thinking about it.
for some reason just not doing it.

scared.
even if i'm the one that would have to do the forgiving.
scared that in other situations i wouldn't be forgiven.
because i don't deserve it.

and i've said all that before, whatever.