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So I'm a man now? What?
All right, I will start with 11:00 yesterday, when I showed up at Sierra's house. We left, went to Blockbuster, and rented "Dangerous Liaisons" because she hadn't seen it before, went back to her place and watched it. Further through the day, at 6:00, we were driving around, talking. She thought I had a girlfriend. "I think you're very attractive," she said, "and I just thought you would have had one!"
Not that we've talked on the BBS and in person for months now and I haven't mentioned me having a girlfriend once, mind you.
So we got back to her place, watched TV on the floor, and I leaned in and kissed her. She kissed back for awhile, then she went into her bedroom. I followed her in. She turned out the lights.
So I lost my virginity listening to Tori Amos. So that goal of mine is over. I feel..very, very complacent today. Sort of like, "Ok, what now?"
After the last show of affection that night, I took to thinking. What am I gonna do now? I like Sierra..but not too much. What do I do? Also..what kind of guy am I for doing this, after only a week and a half of knowing her in person? DAMN! I'm a whore!
But..there's also quite a bit lifted. I was starting to wonder if I'd die, um, sexless. However, I was driving down Interstate 70 not long after it happened, and fireworks went off from the stadium, big ones, right above me. As if they weren't just celebrating our country's independence, but also me, and my whorishness.
So, um, yeah. YEAH.