BEDO Day 1: Writing deterrent
So it's one month away from NaNoWriMo and for once I will actually have time during the day to write. Yay school time. I find that I am having to force myself to write even this right journal right now, let alone anything creative. Aside from a few posts about gaming news on our site, I haven't written anything since my Grandfather passed away. Now I don't know if it has anything to do with that or not but I will openly admit that I have this almost gut reaction to not write. I can be all pumped up and have been plotting in my head all day but as soon as I sit down to put words down my stomach twists and I get this restless feeling in my arms and legs that has me wanting to do something, anything other than writing.
This has never happened to me before. I've put off writing, I've gotten distracted from it, I've even stared at a blank screen/page for long periods of time trying to figure out the 'right way' to say something. I have never had physical anxiety over writing before. I love writing, been doing it since I was little, even been told I'm decent at it. So this is all coming out of left field for me. (What does that even mean? I know nothing about baseball.)
I am also finding it difficult for myself to actually read (or even listen to) a book right now. When I watch tv it's shows I've already seen and I am usually doing other things and not really paying attention to it. Maybe it's a focus problem.
Whatever is going on with me I'm hoping that forcing myself to sit and write something out every day before NaNo will help me overcome it so that I might actually win this year.
This has never happened to me before. I've put off writing, I've gotten distracted from it, I've even stared at a blank screen/page for long periods of time trying to figure out the 'right way' to say something. I have never had physical anxiety over writing before. I love writing, been doing it since I was little, even been told I'm decent at it. So this is all coming out of left field for me. (What does that even mean? I know nothing about baseball.)
I am also finding it difficult for myself to actually read (or even listen to) a book right now. When I watch tv it's shows I've already seen and I am usually doing other things and not really paying attention to it. Maybe it's a focus problem.
Whatever is going on with me I'm hoping that forcing myself to sit and write something out every day before NaNo will help me overcome it so that I might actually win this year.