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Advance Tori Amos. There is just no describing this woman's voice or sensibilities. She will always be soothing and completely riling to me at the same time.
I am desperately trying to shut down, but I'm getting very bad at it. Is this a matter of growing up, or growing down? Is this just a person? I do not know how to balance the kind of fear and elation that this is giving me. Why? Because it always gets taken away, and the crash is not something to which I look forward. The whole "better to have loved and lost" thing? I've never believed that was true. It's generally better to just wear a fucking cup so you don't get your balls crushed. Proverbially--of course.
Meeting with a home loan person today. Not really looking forward to it, but I'll be thrilled to have a pre-approval letter so people will stop fucking asking me about it and we can buy a house that I'm not really ready to own. Grow up, grow up, Ene. Die faster.
I am desperately trying to shut down, but I'm getting very bad at it. Is this a matter of growing up, or growing down? Is this just a person? I do not know how to balance the kind of fear and elation that this is giving me. Why? Because it always gets taken away, and the crash is not something to which I look forward. The whole "better to have loved and lost" thing? I've never believed that was true. It's generally better to just wear a fucking cup so you don't get your balls crushed. Proverbially--of course.
Meeting with a home loan person today. Not really looking forward to it, but I'll be thrilled to have a pre-approval letter so people will stop fucking asking me about it and we can buy a house that I'm not really ready to own. Grow up, grow up, Ene. Die faster.