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I've worked myself up into a stomachache. I don't want to give this presentation today. I still don't see the value of making people who have high social anxiety get up in front of people and do a dog and pony show. I want to just let the I Am Sam tape run for 5 minutes to take up my section.
Yuck, I'm all squirmy and uncomfortable.
I keep thinking about my research project and how one of my theories was that we can use the characters we create to handle a situation better. Say, for instance, if I wasn't outgoing, I could channel one of my characters who were and ask myself what they would do in this situation. That's basically what RP is, writing out the reactions of a personality that isn't yours. If my brain won't let my own identity act outgoing, then perhaps since I've practiced making it think like other people, I can tap into one of those.
At the moment, it isn't working. But I don't think I have any characters that would be good at giving a presentation. None that I'm really currently talking to right now anyway. Not even any that I've made for my own fiction. I need to start making some healthy characters...
Yuck, I'm all squirmy and uncomfortable.
I keep thinking about my research project and how one of my theories was that we can use the characters we create to handle a situation better. Say, for instance, if I wasn't outgoing, I could channel one of my characters who were and ask myself what they would do in this situation. That's basically what RP is, writing out the reactions of a personality that isn't yours. If my brain won't let my own identity act outgoing, then perhaps since I've practiced making it think like other people, I can tap into one of those.
At the moment, it isn't working. But I don't think I have any characters that would be good at giving a presentation. None that I'm really currently talking to right now anyway. Not even any that I've made for my own fiction. I need to start making some healthy characters...