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1. first name
Barbara. I love my name! :D I like being called like that, but Babsi is fine, too.
2. age
... 16, turning 17 IN MARCH NEXT YEAR.
3. location
Fairly big city and I love it. Fun city and quite central~
4. occupation
Student... Tutoring english, too (:
5. partner?
Yup, my Vanilla. Yeeaaahahaha, we have cheesy nicknames for each other isn't that the CUTEST shit ever...
6. kids?
I really have no idea. Sometimes I think that I really would like one (only adopted though, pregnancy is a no-no), but then again they're... like really... annoying and such. I don't know, I think I need to grow up more to be able to decide.
7. brothers/sisters
I have a younger brother who's 9 years old. He is family, so of course I love him, but I have my hard times with him. He is very different from me. He goes to therapy because he has a concentration problem and there he drew me as a monster. I would never say so out loud, but that hurt me. I want to be his loving sister, but I am also only a kid myself, how could I raise him? I think my mom mothers him too much. My brother is a lot like her, sensitive and always looking for affection. I'm like my dad, rough and silent about feelings, that's why I think I'm his 'monster'. But that is okay, better me than anyone else.
8. pets
I was never allowed to have pets. My father always said that he didn't want to, because he didn't like animals and I guess that is the reason I now don't like animals neither. They're cute and all, but I don't need them in my lap or anything. Distance is nice.
Only yesterday my mother told me that I was never allowed to have a pet, because I let all my Tamagochis die. I think that she exaggerated. ):
My brother got two birds, because he really likes animals and like I said, my parents spoil him rotten. They thought maybe those birds give him motivation for school. Shit they do, but fine. I guess, I didn't get a pet, because I was good in school.
The red one died, but we still have the yellow one. She's pretty and silent, so I like her.
9. list the 3-5 biggest things going on in your life
School. It's not that my attitude changed. I still only learn, if I'm reeeaally bad with the stuff. I bring home good marks naturally. Except for maths. But I have so long days, sometimes I just can't do it anymore. Waking up is torture. I feel like I'm in puberty again. 'What's the difference if I wake up now, no one cares.' I'm the first one to get up and if I don't get up, no one gets up.
Health. I have major back problems mostly because of all the stuff I run around with and bad sleep. And I sit all day... My ankle seems to be fine now, but I am afraid that it'll start to hurt again. I hate going to the doctors.
Money. My father is jobless again. I feel bad to ask my parents for money, but I need it... I'm already working, what can I do more? Aish, I just wish, my dad would keep a job...
10. parents
I was always told that my father is the coolest, best father in the world. And I think so, too. I'm very happy to have him. My father says he doesn't give a shit about what I do, but he does. He only gives me that freedom he never had and I'm very grateful for that.
Sometimes I think my mother likes to drive me insane. She's very old fashioned and is worried too much. I'm nearly grown up now, she needs to let go. Again my father helps me though. He always is on my side and protects me from her stupid ideas. (Excuse me? Be home at 8PM, when I'm officialy allowed to stay out till 12PM? Right, suck me.)
My mother is incredibly stubborn and I hate that. She's always right. 'Course. Never admits to make a mistake. I really can't stand that.
Father though isn't perfect either. He's not really homophobic, but once I told him I had a girlfriend and he was so disappointed and angry. At himself, I guess. But he can't change how I fell. I'd wish he'd loosen up, so I could show him the person I love.
11. who are some of your closest friends?
Honestly - I don't have a lot of friends. Only a few can handle me and my honesty. I'm a bitch, for real. I don't trust people too easily and I don't get too attached to anyone, except those I'm gonna list right now.
In school, there is only one real friend I have. Her name's Kerstin and she's a lot like me. I think though, she's more complicated than me - only because she doesn't know better. I do, but I don't know if I should be proud.
Any other 'friends' in school are nice to talk to in breaks, go out to party or shopping. But no real talk going on. Except I'm really drunk.
My real friends unfortunatly live not too near, huh. But we talk anyways. I've seen so many friends of mine come and go. But these here seem to stay! What do I do~~
Everyone, I am sorry but my number one seems to be stuck to me for ever. Dear Cat, I can't even tell you how grateful I am for having you!
And then of course, Kati, Diana, Lena, Tinka and even though we don't talk a lot, Mama too! I love you all very dearly~~
When it comes to online friends, I could repeat all the above... Because that's mostly the way we talk XD
Here on LJ I mostly... have these two: ficcy and tana2507 !
And I can't forget my Genti!
I really wish we could meet someday~~
That's it.
Don't forget to DO THE DUCK WALK!
1. first name
Barbara. I love my name! :D I like being called like that, but Babsi is fine, too.
2. age
... 16, turning 17 IN MARCH NEXT YEAR.
3. location
Fairly big city and I love it. Fun city and quite central~
4. occupation
Student... Tutoring english, too (:
5. partner?
Yup, my Vanilla. Yeeaaahahaha, we have cheesy nicknames for each other isn't that the CUTEST shit ever...
6. kids?
I really have no idea. Sometimes I think that I really would like one (only adopted though, pregnancy is a no-no), but then again they're... like really... annoying and such. I don't know, I think I need to grow up more to be able to decide.
7. brothers/sisters
I have a younger brother who's 9 years old. He is family, so of course I love him, but I have my hard times with him. He is very different from me. He goes to therapy because he has a concentration problem and there he drew me as a monster. I would never say so out loud, but that hurt me. I want to be his loving sister, but I am also only a kid myself, how could I raise him? I think my mom mothers him too much. My brother is a lot like her, sensitive and always looking for affection. I'm like my dad, rough and silent about feelings, that's why I think I'm his 'monster'. But that is okay, better me than anyone else.
8. pets
I was never allowed to have pets. My father always said that he didn't want to, because he didn't like animals and I guess that is the reason I now don't like animals neither. They're cute and all, but I don't need them in my lap or anything. Distance is nice.
Only yesterday my mother told me that I was never allowed to have a pet, because I let all my Tamagochis die. I think that she exaggerated. ):
My brother got two birds, because he really likes animals and like I said, my parents spoil him rotten. They thought maybe those birds give him motivation for school. Shit they do, but fine. I guess, I didn't get a pet, because I was good in school.
The red one died, but we still have the yellow one. She's pretty and silent, so I like her.
9. list the 3-5 biggest things going on in your life
School. It's not that my attitude changed. I still only learn, if I'm reeeaally bad with the stuff. I bring home good marks naturally. Except for maths. But I have so long days, sometimes I just can't do it anymore. Waking up is torture. I feel like I'm in puberty again. 'What's the difference if I wake up now, no one cares.' I'm the first one to get up and if I don't get up, no one gets up.
Health. I have major back problems mostly because of all the stuff I run around with and bad sleep. And I sit all day... My ankle seems to be fine now, but I am afraid that it'll start to hurt again. I hate going to the doctors.
Money. My father is jobless again. I feel bad to ask my parents for money, but I need it... I'm already working, what can I do more? Aish, I just wish, my dad would keep a job...
10. parents
I was always told that my father is the coolest, best father in the world. And I think so, too. I'm very happy to have him. My father says he doesn't give a shit about what I do, but he does. He only gives me that freedom he never had and I'm very grateful for that.
Sometimes I think my mother likes to drive me insane. She's very old fashioned and is worried too much. I'm nearly grown up now, she needs to let go. Again my father helps me though. He always is on my side and protects me from her stupid ideas. (Excuse me? Be home at 8PM, when I'm officialy allowed to stay out till 12PM? Right, suck me.)
My mother is incredibly stubborn and I hate that. She's always right. 'Course. Never admits to make a mistake. I really can't stand that.
Father though isn't perfect either. He's not really homophobic, but once I told him I had a girlfriend and he was so disappointed and angry. At himself, I guess. But he can't change how I fell. I'd wish he'd loosen up, so I could show him the person I love.
11. who are some of your closest friends?
Honestly - I don't have a lot of friends. Only a few can handle me and my honesty. I'm a bitch, for real. I don't trust people too easily and I don't get too attached to anyone, except those I'm gonna list right now.
In school, there is only one real friend I have. Her name's Kerstin and she's a lot like me. I think though, she's more complicated than me - only because she doesn't know better. I do, but I don't know if I should be proud.
Any other 'friends' in school are nice to talk to in breaks, go out to party or shopping. But no real talk going on. Except I'm really drunk.
My real friends unfortunatly live not too near, huh. But we talk anyways. I've seen so many friends of mine come and go. But these here seem to stay! What do I do~~
Everyone, I am sorry but my number one seems to be stuck to me for ever. Dear Cat, I can't even tell you how grateful I am for having you!
And then of course, Kati, Diana, Lena, Tinka and even though we don't talk a lot, Mama too! I love you all very dearly~~
When it comes to online friends, I could repeat all the above... Because that's mostly the way we talk XD
Here on LJ I mostly... have these two: ficcy and tana2507 !
And I can't forget my Genti!
I really wish we could meet someday~~
That's it.
Don't forget to DO THE DUCK WALK!