They will never let you go...

[retrolosr]

In case you haven't heard I am shitting on my happy life. It's complicated. I am ready to go to New York and I'm ready to go now. TODAY. Instead i'm spending today memorizing a monolouge and two scenes and doing pilates because this body of mine is not prepared for swimsuit season.

I have ruined everything I had going. I've now lost at life nad it is totally my fault. I don't know that I am going to update anymore because there are things in life that i'm not doing when i am sitting here at this computer. I need to spend time with me and other people and not with my computer. I don't have enough free time to be doing this anymore.

I have lost everything

Now it is time for me to begin picking up the pieces

I am lost

I am numb

And sure as hell am ready to leave here.

-Heather-