nearly 22
Because I know that I only check livejounal rarely, I decided that it would be a good idea to write an entry for my future self to gain insight on my current idea of how things are and how they soon will be.
The main reason I chose to do the Music & Audio Tech course is to waste some time. To delay getting a job - and doing something that I enjoy in the process. I haven't really thought it through - I never do - and that scares me. But maybe if I did work in the real world for a few years, I would have ended up wanting to do this course anyway. Then it doesn't matter what order we do things. Who knows how turns of events will unfold? But what we do know is that life is what we make it.
The other reason - to live in the place I love. I would love it there, I know that. I shouldn't let little unsubstantial doubts eat away at me. The truth is, I have absolutely no clue where my life will lead - and neither does anyone else.
Reality is disappointing. And it's hard work. My music is probably never going to lead anywhere. But I enjoy it. It is likely that I will end up on low-paying jobs for years. But I think I will be happy. On this I am positive. I may end up in a suit and tie but as long as I have my friends, I'll be super. We are all essentially alone, but we have our mates and our lives mean nothing without them. Kinda like school; homework, lessons, early mornings, ... but the one thing keeping you going was that you got to see your mates everyday.
I will meet like-minded folk on my course. It's inevitable that there'll be plenty of common ground between me and my coursemates. That ought to be enough to keep me going.
Am I obsessive about music? Perhaps just bordering it.
The main reason I chose to do the Music & Audio Tech course is to waste some time. To delay getting a job - and doing something that I enjoy in the process. I haven't really thought it through - I never do - and that scares me. But maybe if I did work in the real world for a few years, I would have ended up wanting to do this course anyway. Then it doesn't matter what order we do things. Who knows how turns of events will unfold? But what we do know is that life is what we make it.
The other reason - to live in the place I love. I would love it there, I know that. I shouldn't let little unsubstantial doubts eat away at me. The truth is, I have absolutely no clue where my life will lead - and neither does anyone else.
Reality is disappointing. And it's hard work. My music is probably never going to lead anywhere. But I enjoy it. It is likely that I will end up on low-paying jobs for years. But I think I will be happy. On this I am positive. I may end up in a suit and tie but as long as I have my friends, I'll be super. We are all essentially alone, but we have our mates and our lives mean nothing without them. Kinda like school; homework, lessons, early mornings, ... but the one thing keeping you going was that you got to see your mates everyday.
I will meet like-minded folk on my course. It's inevitable that there'll be plenty of common ground between me and my coursemates. That ought to be enough to keep me going.
Am I obsessive about music? Perhaps just bordering it.