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So I was reading my old LJ from last year (anybody remember old_school4n6? lmao) and MAN was I an emo-freshman!!! Check this out:
my life makes no sense anymore...im not even sure whats going on. some of my friends have disappeared. others have gotten a little closer. lies have been corrected, the truth was released. feelings were hurt and tears were shed. thats mostly over now but...i hate it when ppl tell me that it will be all right! it wont be! i dunno...but my life has changed 4 the worst. i dont really no how it started but...i dunno...she doesnt like me i dont like her sorta thing goin on now. i no ryans gotten over it faster and better than me but...maybe i liked her more...maybe im just being stupid and immature...i dont no...but now im sick. really sick. my mom thinks its my crohns disease acting up again. man that would make this perfect day even better wouldnt it? if i had 2 go 2 the hospital? ya..then everyone would 4get about me even more...im just not sure what 2 do 2morrow...or ever again 4 that matter. im so confused and i have no one who will listen 2 me or understand me! everyone says that its over and done with. just except it! well I CANT!!! its a hard thing 2 deal with...rejection...my mom says that stress mixed with my disease causes bad side-effects...like twitching. ya that happened 2 me alot last night. my heart was also racing and i had a really high fever. all the while i was trying 2 hold back tears. i dont know why i cant just 4get. i new she didnt like me from the start. i just...guessed...hoped that maybe she might change her mind...but i guess not...so im back at square one again...not noing where 2 go from here. maybe i should just...give up...i dont no...but noone can help me much now.
LMAOO looking back on that whole thing makes me laugh...kinda...but I guess it's just my horrid writing that makes me laugh!! Ooh, freshman drama that I'm no longer a part of ^_^
my life makes no sense anymore...im not even sure whats going on. some of my friends have disappeared. others have gotten a little closer. lies have been corrected, the truth was released. feelings were hurt and tears were shed. thats mostly over now but...i hate it when ppl tell me that it will be all right! it wont be! i dunno...but my life has changed 4 the worst. i dont really no how it started but...i dunno...she doesnt like me i dont like her sorta thing goin on now. i no ryans gotten over it faster and better than me but...maybe i liked her more...maybe im just being stupid and immature...i dont no...but now im sick. really sick. my mom thinks its my crohns disease acting up again. man that would make this perfect day even better wouldnt it? if i had 2 go 2 the hospital? ya..then everyone would 4get about me even more...im just not sure what 2 do 2morrow...or ever again 4 that matter. im so confused and i have no one who will listen 2 me or understand me! everyone says that its over and done with. just except it! well I CANT!!! its a hard thing 2 deal with...rejection...my mom says that stress mixed with my disease causes bad side-effects...like twitching. ya that happened 2 me alot last night. my heart was also racing and i had a really high fever. all the while i was trying 2 hold back tears. i dont know why i cant just 4get. i new she didnt like me from the start. i just...guessed...hoped that maybe she might change her mind...but i guess not...so im back at square one again...not noing where 2 go from here. maybe i should just...give up...i dont no...but noone can help me much now.
LMAOO looking back on that whole thing makes me laugh...kinda...but I guess it's just my horrid writing that makes me laugh!! Ooh, freshman drama that I'm no longer a part of ^_^