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I miss you. Okay? It’s out there. I don’t have to spell it out anymore. I have this crazy sort of feeling that makes me miss you, and it annoys the fuck outta me. Also, fuck you for giving up on me. I think you’re stupid, and funny, and incredible and amazing. I have this feeling in the bottom of my stomach that makes me think we could have been perfect for each other, if you only knew how I felt. Well, I still feel that way. Am I dumb? Ofcourse I am. But now you know. And don't be cynical either, because I already know I fucked up. Now, let’s get the rejection over with. Break my heart, if that’s your intention.
The worst part of all of this is that i thought you were different. I believed you when you told me that you would stay and that was my biggest mistake.
if there's just one piece of advice i can give you, it's this - when there's something you really want, fight for it, don't give up no matter how hopeless it seems. and when you've lost hope, ask yourself if 10 years from now, you're gonna wish you gave it just one more shot. because the best things in life, they don't come free
i've always wanted to be the girl who everyone notices when she walks into a room... not necessarily because she's exceptionally gorgeous or brilliant or has a smile plastered on her face everywhere she goes - i want to be noticed for just being that girl. the one you can always count on. the one who is slightly mysterious but will share her secrets. the one who can get away with sitting a corner all by herself or being a complete social butterfly whenever she chooses. and the fact is, this girl is not noticed for wearing expensive clothing or having a great body or knowing a lot of well-liked people. she is simply noticed for her confidence, her beauty, her poise and being exactly who she is. i know it seems like this type of girl can only be found in a great fictional novel or film, but i want to believe - i need to believe - that this type of girl exists. i need to believe that someone can be noticed and loved for being who they want to be. i need to believe that this type of girl is real.