brothers on a hotel bed (P3 fic; trans!akihiko; shinji/aki)

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title: brothers on a hotel bed
fandom: persona 3
rating: M, for language and...well, i kind of chickened out when it came to the smut buuut i guess there's still some kind of explicit stuff in there?
wordcount: 1608
pairing: akihiko/shinjiro

summary: Akihiko knows that he's lucky-nobody dares to give you shit for these things when you can hit as hard as

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[carmentakoshi]

THIS IS FUCKING AMAZING AND JUST ABOUT MADE MY LIFE I mean. I'm so happy right now, you can't even imagine, dude. This is going into my headcanon right this instant.

Everything about this is just great, raw and powerful and so real. I think it helps that I can relate immensely to Akihiko too (gay trans guy here as well). Reminds me a little of my struggles as well, which isn't a bad thing in this case.

re: Yosuke and Kanji, oh man I KNOW. I spend entire cutscenes raging at the characters and Atlus and etc. because of Yosuke's ignorant and blatantly homophobic and sexist spiels. The tent scene during the school campout? Wanted to punch him in the face the entire time. One would expect at least Chie or Souji to speak out against the shit he says (esp. Souji, who seems like a nice guy despite the snarkiness of some of his responses), but no. Argh, so much frustration. D:<

Also, as little as I know about Naoto at this point - I'm starting the Rise story arc - she's always screamed FtM to me, especially since her Shadow is apparently supposed to be about wanting to be a guy? so I am disappoint upon hearing about the crappiness of her Social Link. :(

Oh Atlus, you try but usually it just falls flat. But at least I have fic like yours to make up for the loss.

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holy shit WELL HEY THERE MY FELLOW GAY TRANS GUY IN FANDOM. HIGH FIVE TIME? I THINK SO.

yeah, i really can't stand fandom's obsession with how much of a ~bro~ yosuke is. he's just fucking awful, there really isn't another way to put it. and i seriously hate it when people try and excuse his homophobia with either "he's a 16 year old boy, they're all like that!" or "he's just confused and in the closet THAT MAKES IT OKAY". because these seem to both be fairly common interpretations in fandom, and...no. just fucking no. i can't even begin to explain the level of NOPE those statements make me feel.

i want to write trans!naoto fic sometime soon, but...it doesn't really feel like it'd be worth the level of wank that topic seems to inspire in fandom. i know for a fact that there's been wank about it on the kink meme at least twice, and that there's been a few fandomsecrets about considering naoto ftm that were totally shouted down by all the commenters :/

[carmentakoshi]

I REQUEST THE HIGHEST OF FIVES!

I've been told by all of my friends who played the game before me that Yosuke is so fucking awesome and everything, so I feel kind of like a stick in the mud for feeling UH NO about him. Glad I'm not alone in thinking this. But the fandom, aaargh. I haven't even begun to look into the P4 one yet, but now I don't want to. At all. Unless I can find some good Kanji/Souji or trans!Naoto/Kanji, because honey? YES.

You should do it if you feel compelled to do so, and fuck everyone else, especially since your writing is awesome. (There's a kink meme for Persona? Where.) Ugh, fandomsecrets. There's a reason I don't keep up with it, and that's mostly it.

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I COUNTER YOUR NPH GIF WITH...ANOTHER NPH GIF. AWW YEAH PARTY TIME

the level of ~brosuke~ love in fandom is astonishing. have these people seriously never had friends like him in rl? because believe me, guys like him are a lot less funny when you actually know one of them and his sexist/homophobic/transphobic bullshit is actually directed at you.

the persona 4 kink meme is badbadbathhouse, and the personas that are not 4 kink meme is shirakawablvd.

fuck yeah kanji/souji! yosuke can go like...hump a trashcan or something. NO HOT MEN FOR HIM >:|

...soooo can i frand you? because dude i think i should totally frand you :3

[carmentakoshi]

I spent like twenty minutes looking for a good nph gif, here you go XD

Omg, dude, I was playing P4 earlier this evening when I realized I CAN NO LONGER STAND YOSUKE how am I going to survive the entire game like this sob. At least someone is finally getting the balls to ridicule him, i.e. Kanji in the tofu shop by telling Rise about how Yosuke was checking her out. God I have such mad love for Kanji. But yeah, I used to know a Yosuke irl, wasn't the greatest guy, to say the least. :/

Thanks! I needed these in my life. (Crossdressing Souji? Yes please)

Kanji/Souji, yeah! HAHAHAH, Yosuke can go be ~forever alone~ for all we care. XD

WE SHOULD TOTALLY BE FRANDS. 8D

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...what the hell why did lj screen this? i had it set to never screen and apparently it automatically switched over to the new setting, which is to screen comments from non-friends with links. but it didn't screen your last comment and that had a link in it too...? gdi lj get your shit together

dude, there were times when i seriously got so pissed that i considered gaving up on the whole game right there

see: that one scene in the camping trip

"oh my god i'm in a tent with a gay man HE'S GOING TO RAPE ME AND CORRUPT MY PURE INNOCENT HETEROSEXUAL SELF"

because jokes about gay men all being rapists are funny and topical rite

tbh, the camping trip in general was pretty much just one giant stream of bullshit. ugh yosuke why do you have to ruin everything potentially good in this game

[carmentakoshi]

Livejournal: fucking with your security options since Ever.

SHIT I KNOW RIGHT? That entire camping trip sequence just got my hackles up liek whoa. I mean, I thought Yosuke was acting pretty obnoxious in the bathhouse dungeon, which I decided to let slide because okay, he's a kid, but I can only stand so much heterosexism and homophobia from one character. Bad enough he was expecting the girls to be all ~sweet~ and ~cook for them~ and ~wear pretty swimsuits~ (and everyone seemed to accept this view NO PROBLEM), but he had to go all dudebro in the tent and practically accuse Kanji of being a sexual predator. Because he's gay. Oh my fucking god GROW UP. SO MUCH ANGER. >:|

I feel like there should be a movement against Yosuke in this fandom or something. Or at least fic that portrays him as he really is presented in the game dialogue. XD Oh man, so many possibilities just surged into my head BUT I DON'T HAVE TIME TO WRITE FIC, I AM BUSY D:

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you know, there are actually people in the fandom who think chie and yukiko were actually in the wrong in that situation because they kicked yosuke into the river. so yosuke's allowed to be as much as an entitled sexist asshat as he wants but god forbid the girls aren't submissive and ~dainty~ all the fucking time

fucking P4 fandom

also i will never stop being pissed that souji/yosuke and souji/naoto are by far the most popular ships

they're the fucking worst pairings possible, what is wrong with you people. and idgaf how much of a ~basher~ i sound like there, those two ships together pretty much represent all of my problems with this game.

[carmentakoshi]

Are you shitting me. People actually advocate this shit. I. I don't even. I bet it's all the same people who are all over Brosuke and his asshattery. (I felt it a little unfair that they kicked Souji into the river, at worst...I was trying to be nice, it's not my fault the game gave me all shitty responses)

I swear to god, one day Chie and Yukiko need to go all FUCK THIS SHIT, WE'RE GONNA GO BE LESBIANS TOGETHER and that'll be the end of that. And then Kanji and Souji can go off together and Naoto can be seen as a guy and Yosuke can work as a Junes employee for the rest of his life. THERE, GAME FIXED.

Ffffffff I sort of shipped Souji/Yosuke at the beginning of the game because I thought Yosuke acted perty gay for Souji when they were alone together, but the moment he started gay-panicking and ~affirming his heterosexuality~ at Kanji's expense, I jumped ship. XD Although a very good fic where Yosuke actually confronts all of that ingrained stuff could make me change my mind, but like that's ever going to be written.

omg, Souji/Naoto, I am crying angry tears >:'(

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also i know this is kind of out of nowhere but I JUST SAW YOU'RE A MEMBER OF THE KYODOROKI COMM

god i ship those two so fucking hard ♥ klavier is such a stereotypical bisexual german prettyboy rock star and apollo is just so awkward all the time IT'S SO GOOD

(...klavier is based off of the guy from tokio hotel y/y)

man i actually way prefer those two to phoenix and edgey but i feel like the fandom would KILL ME for saying so ;~;

[carmentakoshi]

FFFFUCK YEAH, KLAVIER/APOLLO. I ship them so hard, I. Just thinking about them makes me all giddy. XD

To be honest, I started off in the PW fandom shipping P/E like a motherfucker, but then I played AJ and found a few K/A fics and it was life-changing, dude, I can't even say. They're just so GREAT.

Hahahahahah, Klavier is like an amalgam of everything German Pop Rock. Although I have to admit I don't listen to Tokio Hotel, but will rectify this most promptly.

Hahah, iunno, it seems to me that the P/E and K/A branches of the fandom seem to intertwine a whole lot, like if you have a K/A fic there will usually be P/E in the background (especially since Phoenix seems to act as a gay mentor to Apollo a lot, rofl). So I don't think liking Klavier and Apollo over Phoenix and Edgey is gonna ruffle too many feathers. XD Then again, this is Fandom, so you never know.

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i mean i actually prefer the two of them as characters, though! and idk it's been a long time since i was in aa fandom but it felt like there was fair amount of rivalry between the pw and aj camps. although that was back when aj had just come out, so people have probably mellowed out a bit now.

i don't listen to tokio hotel either, but SERIOUSLY. take one look at bill kaulitz and tell me that isn't klavier right there. he's german! he's incredibly sexually ambiguous and an insanely pretty rock star! people write smutty fic of him and his brother!

hnnngh i need to replay aj sometime soon y/n? ugh i want all the gay lawyers in my life like right now

all of them

[carmentakoshi]

Ah, I see. I have to say I was super skeptical about Apollo at first, but he grew on me in an instant, the adorable bugger. I think most of the fandom was just quick to judge. It seems AJ is pretty integrated to me.

.....he IS pretty. Hot damn. But noooo, bandfic, stay away. XD

REPLAY IT. I could never replay it enough times, it is just so good. HAVE YOU PLAYED ACE ATTORNEY: INVESTIGATIONS? I thought it would suck but it's actually pretty good. Not as amazing as AJ (I kept wishing for an AJ sequel instead), but still, Edgeworth is amusing in his own right.

All of them. Hahahahah. XD

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i haven't played investigations, no ._. i can't really be bothered! it just doesn't interest me at all. edgey is alright, i guess, but it's just...man what was even the point of that game anyway

all of the promos for it were basically YOU CAN WALK HOW AMAZING

like is that really all it has going for it. really.

[carmentakoshi]

Iiiiit's okay, I guess. I liked it because despite everything I do have a soft spot for Edgeworth. There wasn't really much point to the game, though. XD It was mostly all ~walking around searching for clues for way too long~ and ~logic~ and ~gratuitous young female assistant~ and ~dramatic past of the gratuitous young female assistant~. Some parts of it were entertaining because of the dialogue (lol Gumshoe), but sometimes you really just wanted the cases to end. -_-0