Fuck this weather
I've come to the conclusion that I'm an asshole. This whole time, I thought to myself " I wish I could be completely ruthless sometimes" but the fact of the matter is... I am completely ruthless all of the time. But its mostly in a silent kind of way. I dont directly come out and say terribly things...I just show it off with actions. And besides from saying terrible things or whatever...I do terrible things that no one really notices is wrong. Mostly cause half the time I keep the things I do to myself..and only tell a selected few- ones I know won't judge me or tell me I'm a fucking bitch , even though its the cold hearted truth. Besides from me being a total dickhead, I decided that next semester I cannot let senioritis get the best of me. Because this semester I did completely terrible..and I am not looking forward to what my parents have to say when they receive my report card in the mail Jan. 10th. Last night...we attempted to party at Cods- but there was so many people in there I felt like I was suffocating slowly. I never really had the experience of walking around with my arms completely packed at my sides for a half hour before. Me n Kait got out of there early- but at least we talked to some people we haven't talked to in awhile. That hungarian kids voice was the highlight of my night by far. Then I went to visit my love..but he was having a sausage fest and as kaitlyn said...we weren't really feeling that, and I wasn't really feeling too good for some odd reason. I crashed as soon as I stepped foot inside my room..Tonight I believe I'm grounded due to causing a scene at my moms office...but I am doing her laundry right now and attempting to cook supper, so hopefully she will forgive my "asshole-ness" and let me go out tonight. Maybe give me some money while she's at it...ha