fifty five: i lose sleep just to daydream of you.
Life's not good lately. It's been worst than bad.
Will tomorrow be a better day? I always tell myself to believe that it will be, but it just seems like yet another delusion on my part.
Today was terrible, I'm aching all over from yesterday's fitness test & I'm emotionally bruised & battered even much more.
I cried like twice or something again, not knowing why. I'm like OMGWTF, not again. I'm so angry with myself LAH.
School itself is dead boring. UGH. & Kelson had his oral examinations today. Doesn't seem too good, huh? Oh wells, just do your best & that's what mattered.
Mine's on Friday. ICK.
Kelson,
both of us seriously have no idea what's actually going on & stuff. But it still caused such a huge rift between us all of a sudden. It's like just not how we are before, we used to talk about anything & everything... But now, it's such a chore to even open up & speak. I really miss you, I miss all the crazy times we always have when we're together. I miss how we always think alike & how we just managed to have fun together, in each other's presence.
I hope it isn't cause of Charmaine that caused all this. I'm letting that go alreadys. I don't really care about it.
All I want is for us to talk things out & all.
I really do miss you tons. ♥
Will tomorrow be a better day? I always tell myself to believe that it will be, but it just seems like yet another delusion on my part.
Today was terrible, I'm aching all over from yesterday's fitness test & I'm emotionally bruised & battered even much more.
I cried like twice or something again, not knowing why. I'm like OMGWTF, not again. I'm so angry with myself LAH.
School itself is dead boring. UGH. & Kelson had his oral examinations today. Doesn't seem too good, huh? Oh wells, just do your best & that's what mattered.
Mine's on Friday. ICK.
Kelson,
both of us seriously have no idea what's actually going on & stuff. But it still caused such a huge rift between us all of a sudden. It's like just not how we are before, we used to talk about anything & everything... But now, it's such a chore to even open up & speak. I really miss you, I miss all the crazy times we always have when we're together. I miss how we always think alike & how we just managed to have fun together, in each other's presence.
I hope it isn't cause of Charmaine that caused all this. I'm letting that go alreadys. I don't really care about it.
All I want is for us to talk things out & all.
I really do miss you tons. ♥