My take on JJ's 3Voices and my truest feelings.
I just finished watching JYJ 3Voices Jaejoong's story. I haven't watched the Junsu and Yoochun's story yet.
This is my most honest feeling and impression.
Jaejoong. He looked lost, unsure at certain points. I like to think that he showed us that side of him unconsciously. In the beginning of the story, I feel like he's trying too hard to please the fans; thrown fanservice here and there. Not that I'm complaining though. He's trying to be strong and move on. And yet I am sure it is not something easy to do. As he himself claimed in the film, Japan held too many memories for him. Memories... with who? Could be everyone and not specified to certain close friends. But (I think) I know who is it that he's been talking on and on subtly.
It pained me to see his eyes went dimmed when he recalled something in the past.
It hurts me when he said he wants to go back to 2,5 years ago. His follow up comment to his statement was loosely tied though. I can see he's trying to cover it up, with something, anything. Because the past is painful to anyone involved; himself, the band members and also the fans. He wants to make the wrong right. But he himself does not even know if what he's doing now is something right or not. All he know is to move on because he perfectly aware that he cannot turn back the time.
Yet... there's this looming question and suspicion in my mind.
Why did he said those things, the implied things about the five of them? Is it relevant? What is he trying to achieve by saying those things? Are those feelings flashed through his face real?
After all, he's been living in the industry long enough to know what to do in front of camera. I am sure, (as all artists are) he knows what he can do with the power of camera and media. And reception.
Do I not like him? Fuck You.
I love him enough to see that he's very human in here.
But then again, I question the same thing to every moves and answers made by the other four. After all, I am just a mere fan that can only assume and hope.
I put Jaejoong in spotlight because I just saw him... But the cruel questions about acting and self-preserving has always been in my mind aimed to the remaining four as well.
This is the utmost truth of my feelings toward the five of them. Toward the fandom. Because I don't know them and don't love them enough to know what is the reality behind all of this chaos. Because I cannot read their minds. And I prefer to stay that way, knowing nobody is perfect, not even them; The Gods from the East.
I am still gonna embrace the real them, with all their flaws. Even though they have bajillion thoughts ranged from evil to good. Because it's just human nature.
This is my most honest feeling and impression.
Jaejoong. He looked lost, unsure at certain points. I like to think that he showed us that side of him unconsciously. In the beginning of the story, I feel like he's trying too hard to please the fans; thrown fanservice here and there. Not that I'm complaining though. He's trying to be strong and move on. And yet I am sure it is not something easy to do. As he himself claimed in the film, Japan held too many memories for him. Memories... with who? Could be everyone and not specified to certain close friends. But (I think) I know who is it that he's been talking on and on subtly.
It pained me to see his eyes went dimmed when he recalled something in the past.
It hurts me when he said he wants to go back to 2,5 years ago. His follow up comment to his statement was loosely tied though. I can see he's trying to cover it up, with something, anything. Because the past is painful to anyone involved; himself, the band members and also the fans. He wants to make the wrong right. But he himself does not even know if what he's doing now is something right or not. All he know is to move on because he perfectly aware that he cannot turn back the time.
Yet... there's this looming question and suspicion in my mind.
Why did he said those things, the implied things about the five of them? Is it relevant? What is he trying to achieve by saying those things? Are those feelings flashed through his face real?
After all, he's been living in the industry long enough to know what to do in front of camera. I am sure, (as all artists are) he knows what he can do with the power of camera and media. And reception.
Do I not like him? Fuck You.
I love him enough to see that he's very human in here.
But then again, I question the same thing to every moves and answers made by the other four. After all, I am just a mere fan that can only assume and hope.
I put Jaejoong in spotlight because I just saw him... But the cruel questions about acting and self-preserving has always been in my mind aimed to the remaining four as well.
This is the utmost truth of my feelings toward the five of them. Toward the fandom. Because I don't know them and don't love them enough to know what is the reality behind all of this chaos. Because I cannot read their minds. And I prefer to stay that way, knowing nobody is perfect, not even them; The Gods from the East.
I am still gonna embrace the real them, with all their flaws. Even though they have bajillion thoughts ranged from evil to good. Because it's just human nature.