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so we got divorced - separated - and are still going through the legal stuff. it's awful. extraordinarily awful.
i initiated it, and though this is about how i thought things would go, i didn't anticipate exactly how much i would miss him.
THAT is the worst.
and now....... i want to be back with him. despite our issues, individually and as a couple, i really only kept pushing forward into separation because he Would. NOT. go to counseling.
so i've moved out, the new place is nice, but the new levels of depression are debilitating. goddamn, dude, all i wanted is for you to get into regular therapy. and work at it.
would i get back together with him?
yes.
yes i would.
it's not the money. i don't give a fuck about the money and i never have. do i need money to survive? of course. i also want him to help me when i am struggling because that's what partners do. i told him i'd never hesitate if we were in opposite places; he'll never believe it, but it's true.
he is truly my other half and i just want us to be the couple that we once were,
before,
when things were good.