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It's been a few but it is about time for an update. The past couple days have been really good. I mean I have been happy and nice to everyone. It gets exhausting. I am just worried about a lot of stuff. I am worried about losing friends that I am getting closer to everyday and I am worried about losing friends that are distant from me right now. I don't know it is like school is sucking my life away from me. I think about it all the time. I just want some peace. So today to get the peace, I turned off the world and took a nap, only to wake up grumpy and more worried about the homework I now have less time to do. Tonight I have a NHS thing to go to and I don't know, I just wish things were different. I wish I could have more fun and not stress about so much and I just wish that I could trust more people. I wish that I could tell people how I really feel so that I don't get hurt and them not know it. I personally wish I didn't care about people the way that I do and I also wish I didn't dissapoint them all the time. I'm sorry for my grumpy entry, but I needed it and I just wish people weren't so stupid. Sometimes you just feel really out of the loop.....I have feelings too....