kinda sick of stuff
I dont know ne more....i finally figured out why i care so much bout my friends and everyone that is a part of my life...i believe it is because im making up for stuff that i dont get around the house...i mean my dad and i are amazing and close...my mom and i are a different story...she doesnt even talk to me...i dont think she even likes me at all...im so jealous when other ppl have such close relationships with their mom's and mine doesnt even make me feel like she wants me to exisist....i dont know...i think that is why i have felt so lonley latley...i think that is why i feel like i always have to have a best friend and then funny thing is i still dont have one....a girl best friend to talk bout everything with...everyone that i think could be one already has there own lol....i dont know...lol it has been a kinda crummy day...love you all.....Rachel