Epiphany Night
So as usual, I had an epiphany breakdown night...This happens once every couple of months.
I have come to the conclusion on what is important...
When I die, I want to be remembered as an amazing human being who laughed a lot, loved/told/made up corny jokes, wrote poems (funny and serious), and loved people....
I don't care about anything else...
I want to be remembered as someone who loved their friends more than anything...
I guess thinking about life in a way where you think about how you want to be remembered really shows what is important...
being happy is important, and for once in my movie of life, I plan on taking the lead part instead of always giving the spotlight to someone else...It is my movie damnit...
And I want to be happy with my co-star hottymchothot boyfriend.....
i think finally i am going to be myself and stop pretending to be something I am not...and if certain people don't like it, then they will have to get a new best friend, because i have been a sitting duck too long....
I am not just around to make you feel better about yourself...
i love you aj...i really do, and I am sorry for always putting other people first, and for letting stupid other people persuade me to do stupid things....
Okay, I feel a little better, tomorrow is the start of a new day, a new week, and a new me....
Bring it on...I can do this....
p.s.-I love my dad...he helped me come to this realization and is always there for my breakdowns...
p.p.s.-Kelley Stonebraker is and always will be my best friend...she just blows my mind...and I can be myself around her...what a concept....
I have come to the conclusion on what is important...
When I die, I want to be remembered as an amazing human being who laughed a lot, loved/told/made up corny jokes, wrote poems (funny and serious), and loved people....
I don't care about anything else...
I want to be remembered as someone who loved their friends more than anything...
I guess thinking about life in a way where you think about how you want to be remembered really shows what is important...
being happy is important, and for once in my movie of life, I plan on taking the lead part instead of always giving the spotlight to someone else...It is my movie damnit...
And I want to be happy with my co-star hottymchothot boyfriend.....
i think finally i am going to be myself and stop pretending to be something I am not...and if certain people don't like it, then they will have to get a new best friend, because i have been a sitting duck too long....
I am not just around to make you feel better about yourself...
i love you aj...i really do, and I am sorry for always putting other people first, and for letting stupid other people persuade me to do stupid things....
Okay, I feel a little better, tomorrow is the start of a new day, a new week, and a new me....
Bring it on...I can do this....
p.s.-I love my dad...he helped me come to this realization and is always there for my breakdowns...
p.p.s.-Kelley Stonebraker is and always will be my best friend...she just blows my mind...and I can be myself around her...what a concept....