It's me
So, livejournal, did you miss me? It looks like you got a bit dusty over here! So I'm going to rant about my current night. It blew.
So tonight was Maria's party. It sucked. I'm sorry it really did. 80% of the time I was sitting on the couch talking to my friends which were very few considering hardly any of them went. So basically it was Me, Andrew, Sara, Zach, Regina, Branden, Cameron and uhh I think that's it. We talked the whole night really. There were about 30 people there. I laid down on the couch for a bit and this girl Tiffany sat on my pants. Mind you she's a total whore and a ginger kid. I'm sorry but it's true.
We got really bored really fast so we got up and went into this tiny room and sat around in a circle and played some gay games and talked. So Sara and this girl Tiffany talked about their sex lives. Now here is where it gets interesting. See I don't get uncomfortable because I am so used to hearing about sex and everything in between. But when I get literally harassed about being a virgin and pretty much not cool enough because I did not choose to have sex, it bothers me. I have morals and people need to respect them. I mean yes I do joke around with people calling them a Jew or other things but in no way do I make them feel uncomfortable to the extent where they can react irrationally. I was extremely sad and extremely irritated. I really can't take this anymore. It's like well I didn't have sex therefore I'm not cool. I can't confront Sara about it because 1. She's my friend and I value our friendship 2. I'm really too nice to people 3. She'll get pissed. See I'm not like everyone else where I would confront her because like I said, I'm nice. I don't like when people are mad. I like to have fun. One other thing that bothered me was the fact they brought up Ben. Ben, for some of you who do not now, is a boy that basically went after my ex-girlfriend after about an hour AFTER I broke it off with her. He was suppost to be my close friend, but that all changed drastically over the summer of last year. His friend was there and defending him but I stood quiet until he said I was immature for bring the subject up about a girl who had large breasts. I literally exploded. Every third word involved "fuck." No one seemed to see that side of me before. But I cannot simply sit there and be called immature and not defend myself. So I did.
Another thing bothers me. EVERYWHERE I GO, a girl tells me my best friend, Andrew, is hot. Or they simply tell him. I will literally flat out and say, I'm jealous. I feel that I am not attractive at all. No one can tell me differently either. I'm stubborn. Andrew is so much more attractive than me and I'm so jealous of that. I'm more of a smart, fat, nerd kind of kid. Girls consider me more of a brother than of a significant other. I mean yeah, that's all fine and dandy, I love helping people out and giving them advice, but when will I find someone who will make me happy. Someone I can just simply lay down on the beach with and look at the clouds. That's all I simply ask for. I don't want sex, I don't want boobs, I don't want as. I just want a girl to simply like/love me for who I am, not what I look like. Yes, I do like to have fun, I'm loud, I like joking around. Yes I make sexual jokes, but to be honest, I'm scared of sex. I would never ever force someone to have sex if they do not want it. Hell, I don't even have sex, and I'm a guy. I respect women. I love women. Some of my best friends are women. I just wish other people saw it my way. It just seems people see one side of me and not the other. I am a caring person. I give respect when it's given to me. I care a lot about people. Sometimes a bit too much and go up and beyond and go the extra foot for people. I keep promises. I'm loyal. But it seems people see the outside Danny rather than the inside, which I think is the most important part of anyone.
Thank you livejournal for letting me use you every so often and give me a place to privately rant to no one.
So tonight was Maria's party. It sucked. I'm sorry it really did. 80% of the time I was sitting on the couch talking to my friends which were very few considering hardly any of them went. So basically it was Me, Andrew, Sara, Zach, Regina, Branden, Cameron and uhh I think that's it. We talked the whole night really. There were about 30 people there. I laid down on the couch for a bit and this girl Tiffany sat on my pants. Mind you she's a total whore and a ginger kid. I'm sorry but it's true.
We got really bored really fast so we got up and went into this tiny room and sat around in a circle and played some gay games and talked. So Sara and this girl Tiffany talked about their sex lives. Now here is where it gets interesting. See I don't get uncomfortable because I am so used to hearing about sex and everything in between. But when I get literally harassed about being a virgin and pretty much not cool enough because I did not choose to have sex, it bothers me. I have morals and people need to respect them. I mean yes I do joke around with people calling them a Jew or other things but in no way do I make them feel uncomfortable to the extent where they can react irrationally. I was extremely sad and extremely irritated. I really can't take this anymore. It's like well I didn't have sex therefore I'm not cool. I can't confront Sara about it because 1. She's my friend and I value our friendship 2. I'm really too nice to people 3. She'll get pissed. See I'm not like everyone else where I would confront her because like I said, I'm nice. I don't like when people are mad. I like to have fun. One other thing that bothered me was the fact they brought up Ben. Ben, for some of you who do not now, is a boy that basically went after my ex-girlfriend after about an hour AFTER I broke it off with her. He was suppost to be my close friend, but that all changed drastically over the summer of last year. His friend was there and defending him but I stood quiet until he said I was immature for bring the subject up about a girl who had large breasts. I literally exploded. Every third word involved "fuck." No one seemed to see that side of me before. But I cannot simply sit there and be called immature and not defend myself. So I did.
Another thing bothers me. EVERYWHERE I GO, a girl tells me my best friend, Andrew, is hot. Or they simply tell him. I will literally flat out and say, I'm jealous. I feel that I am not attractive at all. No one can tell me differently either. I'm stubborn. Andrew is so much more attractive than me and I'm so jealous of that. I'm more of a smart, fat, nerd kind of kid. Girls consider me more of a brother than of a significant other. I mean yeah, that's all fine and dandy, I love helping people out and giving them advice, but when will I find someone who will make me happy. Someone I can just simply lay down on the beach with and look at the clouds. That's all I simply ask for. I don't want sex, I don't want boobs, I don't want as. I just want a girl to simply like/love me for who I am, not what I look like. Yes, I do like to have fun, I'm loud, I like joking around. Yes I make sexual jokes, but to be honest, I'm scared of sex. I would never ever force someone to have sex if they do not want it. Hell, I don't even have sex, and I'm a guy. I respect women. I love women. Some of my best friends are women. I just wish other people saw it my way. It just seems people see one side of me and not the other. I am a caring person. I give respect when it's given to me. I care a lot about people. Sometimes a bit too much and go up and beyond and go the extra foot for people. I keep promises. I'm loyal. But it seems people see the outside Danny rather than the inside, which I think is the most important part of anyone.
Thank you livejournal for letting me use you every so often and give me a place to privately rant to no one.