lonely saturday
went to iupui this morning. looks like it'll be better to transfer than to keep taking classes at the re-re college. so I need to take care of that.
came home, went to the pool. only stayed an hour, because I get bored there by myself, and I don't want to burn anymore.
did some laundry, worked on some wedding flowers. finished my book I got the other night. took a nap. worked on wedding flowers some more, had some cereal. it's been lonely around here today. and I'm stressing.
there is so much to do, so much still to worry about. I've been planning this damn thing for a year and a half now, and I thought I was doing really well, I had everything under control. and honestly, if I didn't do another thing between now and the wedding, it would most likely go just fine. but I can't help trying to forsee every possible thing that could go wrong and try to have a backup plan for that scenario, because I know that something HAS to go wrong. I sat josh down last night and asked him what we would do if one of our family members dies the morning of our wedding. I know, folks. this is getting a bit crazy. there are two reasons for my mounting insanity: one-it's inevitable for me to feel more and more stress the closer the wedding gets. two-and this is the bigger problem-I have nothing else to spend my time doing. josh expects me to leave him alone to play video games and just entertain myself. since there is nothing else for me to do with my time, I end up resorting to trying to find something wedding-related to agonize over just to fill the hours between work and bed. so I keep finding other little details, other questions, other lists of wedding don't, and the stress keeps mounting. will there be a single one of our groomsmen get fitted for his tux without us having to drive him there and hold his hand into the store? will our airline charge us $50 if we ask for a blanket on the flight?
well I guess I should finish this post. there is, apparently, no happy medium. josh just got home and he's either going to delve into his book and be lost to me for the next 5 hours or else I stop whatever I'm doing and talk to him RIGHT NOW. *sighs*
came home, went to the pool. only stayed an hour, because I get bored there by myself, and I don't want to burn anymore.
did some laundry, worked on some wedding flowers. finished my book I got the other night. took a nap. worked on wedding flowers some more, had some cereal. it's been lonely around here today. and I'm stressing.
there is so much to do, so much still to worry about. I've been planning this damn thing for a year and a half now, and I thought I was doing really well, I had everything under control. and honestly, if I didn't do another thing between now and the wedding, it would most likely go just fine. but I can't help trying to forsee every possible thing that could go wrong and try to have a backup plan for that scenario, because I know that something HAS to go wrong. I sat josh down last night and asked him what we would do if one of our family members dies the morning of our wedding. I know, folks. this is getting a bit crazy. there are two reasons for my mounting insanity: one-it's inevitable for me to feel more and more stress the closer the wedding gets. two-and this is the bigger problem-I have nothing else to spend my time doing. josh expects me to leave him alone to play video games and just entertain myself. since there is nothing else for me to do with my time, I end up resorting to trying to find something wedding-related to agonize over just to fill the hours between work and bed. so I keep finding other little details, other questions, other lists of wedding don't, and the stress keeps mounting. will there be a single one of our groomsmen get fitted for his tux without us having to drive him there and hold his hand into the store? will our airline charge us $50 if we ask for a blanket on the flight?
well I guess I should finish this post. there is, apparently, no happy medium. josh just got home and he's either going to delve into his book and be lost to me for the next 5 hours or else I stop whatever I'm doing and talk to him RIGHT NOW. *sighs*