pet peeve
i have come to realised that my biggest pet peeve is getting woken up in the morning before i want to wake up..
nothing spoils a perfect night's sleep or a beautiful morning better than getting woken up by my mum..
in fact as i'm sitting in bed now.. i'm being enveloped by the noise of drilling and hammering since an hour ago and it is bugging me less than the 5 second phone call from my mum at 1012am saying "Wake up! it is already 10!"
nope.. she wasn't shouting or angry.. it's just that tone in her voice..
it seems to go like.. "it's 10.. why the hell aren't you out of bed.."
and it also implies "there is so much to be done.. why are you so irresponsible and lazy.." etc..
then at that moment.. it feels like the weight of the day is on my shoulders..
i think about everything i need to do.. the fact i need to see her face for the whole day..
(she's suppose to have gone for work by 9)
i don't know about you.. but i have a morning waking routine..
this usually happens on days i have nothing concrete on..
basically.. i set my body clock the night before as well as my phone alarm (9:30am)..
my phone alarm rings.. i turn it off.. and start working on psyching myself awake..
during this process.. i start stretching out my muscles, start planning my day and think about happy stuff basically..
(which is why i hate it when my mum loves to come into my room before i'm awake and start giving me a list of things she wants me to do.. i rather she writes me a note and i'd slot the stuff in later)
and that takes me 15mins to an hour depending on the sleep i had the night before..
i dont like to be woken before my alarm rings.. i dont like to be spoken to until i'm fully awake..
and the last people i want to hear or see are my parents..
which is why i've been waking at 930am so that they'd have gone to the office..
there are exceptions though..
on days i've stuff on.. most of the time i'd snap awake once the alarm goes..
but it means i'd be grumpy until after my shower
(because i do the happy psyching during my shower)
or depending on the sleep i had the night before..
but the call of duty usually set the grumpiness aside..
the other exception is being woken up by someone i actually wanna wake up to..
who is none other than my SO..
so yea..
and my mum just doesn't get it.. she just wants me to deal with it..
to her.. i'm grumpy cos i'm selfish and cos i disrespect her..
her logic is that if i were to think for others or respect her.. i wouldn't get grumpy at all..
she says i have no rights to say i'm wired like that..
the thing is i don't give a shit..
(i actually calmed down and felt better after typing everything above but she just came in and ruin my mood again)
she can threaten me all she wants.. she can cut my finances.. whatever.. i don't care..
the reason why i didn't even get to earn money the whole of my holidays is because of her..
she didn't allow me to work at places i wanted to work at.. either it's the working hours or the environment..
if she cuts off my finances then i shan't give a shit about what she thinks anymore..
seriously.. i'm turning 20 this year.. she needs to get a grip and start remembering that..
and if she drives me to the point of insanity..
i'd just kill myself and take the family along with me..
unfortunately for her.. she knows i'm very capable of doing that..
she has too much "morality" to bring herself to do that as much as she threatens..
i, on the other hand, don't care much about "morality"..
unfilial? i don't think so..
this is what i've been pushed to become.. and i would think i'd have become worse if not for filial piety..
or am i being immature..?
nothing spoils a perfect night's sleep or a beautiful morning better than getting woken up by my mum..
in fact as i'm sitting in bed now.. i'm being enveloped by the noise of drilling and hammering since an hour ago and it is bugging me less than the 5 second phone call from my mum at 1012am saying "Wake up! it is already 10!"
nope.. she wasn't shouting or angry.. it's just that tone in her voice..
it seems to go like.. "it's 10.. why the hell aren't you out of bed.."
and it also implies "there is so much to be done.. why are you so irresponsible and lazy.." etc..
then at that moment.. it feels like the weight of the day is on my shoulders..
i think about everything i need to do.. the fact i need to see her face for the whole day..
(she's suppose to have gone for work by 9)
i don't know about you.. but i have a morning waking routine..
this usually happens on days i have nothing concrete on..
basically.. i set my body clock the night before as well as my phone alarm (9:30am)..
my phone alarm rings.. i turn it off.. and start working on psyching myself awake..
during this process.. i start stretching out my muscles, start planning my day and think about happy stuff basically..
(which is why i hate it when my mum loves to come into my room before i'm awake and start giving me a list of things she wants me to do.. i rather she writes me a note and i'd slot the stuff in later)
and that takes me 15mins to an hour depending on the sleep i had the night before..
i dont like to be woken before my alarm rings.. i dont like to be spoken to until i'm fully awake..
and the last people i want to hear or see are my parents..
which is why i've been waking at 930am so that they'd have gone to the office..
there are exceptions though..
on days i've stuff on.. most of the time i'd snap awake once the alarm goes..
but it means i'd be grumpy until after my shower
(because i do the happy psyching during my shower)
or depending on the sleep i had the night before..
but the call of duty usually set the grumpiness aside..
the other exception is being woken up by someone i actually wanna wake up to..
who is none other than my SO..
so yea..
and my mum just doesn't get it.. she just wants me to deal with it..
to her.. i'm grumpy cos i'm selfish and cos i disrespect her..
her logic is that if i were to think for others or respect her.. i wouldn't get grumpy at all..
she says i have no rights to say i'm wired like that..
the thing is i don't give a shit..
(i actually calmed down and felt better after typing everything above but she just came in and ruin my mood again)
she can threaten me all she wants.. she can cut my finances.. whatever.. i don't care..
the reason why i didn't even get to earn money the whole of my holidays is because of her..
she didn't allow me to work at places i wanted to work at.. either it's the working hours or the environment..
if she cuts off my finances then i shan't give a shit about what she thinks anymore..
seriously.. i'm turning 20 this year.. she needs to get a grip and start remembering that..
and if she drives me to the point of insanity..
i'd just kill myself and take the family along with me..
unfortunately for her.. she knows i'm very capable of doing that..
she has too much "morality" to bring herself to do that as much as she threatens..
i, on the other hand, don't care much about "morality"..
unfilial? i don't think so..
this is what i've been pushed to become.. and i would think i'd have become worse if not for filial piety..
or am i being immature..?